Illegal Feelings

Before the Love Starts (Ch. 1)

I can't do this. Why did I even sleep with him 9 months ago? I have no love for him.

I stared blankly at my husband Nolan. He was smiling at me, waiting anxiously for our baby to come any minute now. I sighed. What a fucking loser. I can't wait for this damn baby to come out so I can get out of here.

All of a sudden...my water broke. I felt my baby moving inside, eager to get out. I yelled in pain, sweat dripping from my face.

I squirmed around in the hospital bed, pushing and breathing to the best of my ability. The doctor huddled around my vagina like a miracle was happening. Nolan ran over and grabbed my hand, reassuringly, but I pushed him away.

I can do this, c'mon now!

I pushed and held tightly to the bed sheets, clenching my teeth together and closing my eyes tightly.

Then..

Infant cries filled up the room.

A wave of relief hit me and I smiled, wiping the sweat from my face. I was a mess. My hair was everywhere, my heart rate is high, and I felt uncomfortably sweaty.
But it was worth it.

"Here's your baby boy." said the nurse, handing him over to me.

I looked into his eyes crandling him. I felt an odd spark in my emotions, but I ignored it. His cries was music to my ears. I breastfeed him with a relieving smile on my face.

Nolan bent down at my side, in tears, taking a close look at our baby boy. "I'm a-" he sniffed, "I'm a father now." I rolled my eyes and laughed.

A smiling nurse asked, "What are you going to call him?" I looked at my baby and looked back at her, smiling.

"I'm going to call him, Brayden."