This is..........Me

Day One: August 9, 2016

5:03 P.M.

So, day one I suppose this would be. I decided to start writing this because I have a lot on my mind that I feel like I can't share with anybody I know and thought to myself, "Why not just put this into a journal online that way people I don't know don't have to deal with the burdens of me telling them about my life or what's wrong with me this time that way I'm not a bother to them?" Seems like a decent idea. Some of the words I use may be weird because I say different random words when I actually talk and I like to write how I would normally talk that way the reader gets more of a feel of the writer ya know?

You'll prolly be confused as to what in the hell is going on and what I'm talking about because I'm not starting at the very beginning of my life because that's too much to explain. You'll figure it out as time progresses forward. I will have to warn you that when I'm in a pissed off mood, I tend to use more colorful words. My favorite one to use is bitch and fuck. Just tellin' ya for future reference.

No, I'm not a southerner. I just use some of their words because of where I grew up and currently still live (for the time being) is a small, rural town in Indiana. Crazy right? Like, who the fuck in their right mind live in Indiana? Well, I didn't choose to live in this shithole, but whatever. Make the best of it while I can I suppose. Once I finish high school, off to college it is and once that's over with, "SEE YA LATER BITCHES!" I will move from this god forbidden state and never look back. Wow, so much hatred. Meh, that's me. Sorry, if the thoughts are randomly placed out. I don't really think when I'm letting my mind flow like this. I just let it all out without order or thinking. So, I apologize if you're one of those people that like things to be in order. If that's the case, you prolly shouldn't be reading this right now.

So, guys and gals, I just got done with my last first day of high school, oh excuse me, hell! Yay me! One day closer to having the freedom to actually live my life. I already don't have a life because literally all I do is go to school, do homework, and do band things or music in general. Ya ya ya, I'm a freak. I play the clarinet in band and I want to make a living out of teaching music because I'm a freak. Laugh it up now. I talk a lot about music because, let's face it, music is my passion and it's really the only thing I got going for me at this point in life. Everyone hates me for some odd reason. Whatever. Like me? Good. Hate me? Even better. I'm just sick and tired of people ya know? Purry sure you guys feel the same way I do right now.

For some reason, all the people that I talk to either end up hating me at some point or falling in love with me. Like what the fuck guys? It drives me absolutely INSANE. Haha, it's prolly the reason why I ain't got any friends. Well, I have a couple, but none that I actually hang out with because I'm a loner. Oh, I also have a boyfriend, but he lives in southern Indiana. I'll also talk about him a lot too because, let's face it, without him, I wouldn't be here today. Just sayin'. I'm not gonna release TOO much information about him because I don't want him out there and whatnot because that's simply not fair to him at all. Plus, I don't need some crazy lady stalking me just to get to my boyfriend. That's a no no ladies. He's MY man. Not yours, so if at some point you like him or even THINK you like him just from the sounds of him, don't even think about it chicas.

So, back to the topic of school. Sorry about that. I slept like shit last night because I never sleep all night or really all that well the night before the first day of school because I'm one of those weird kids that wants to go back to school since I love learning about new things. So, I have seven classes total.

1. Cadet teaching (being an assistant teacher for the little kids)

2. Advanced English Honors 111/112 Dual Credit (freshman college course and I'll get high school AND college credits if I pass the class, which I will)

3. Pre-Calculus (where I'm simply going to die because I'm not the greatest, but I'm not the worst at math, oh and this is a dual credit class too)

4. Music History (I have this class with one other person and he's in our band and we all don't like him. Of course I'd get stuck in a class with only one other person and it just so happens to be a kid I strongly dislike)

5. Band (favorite class of the day...always gets interesting in there)

6. Instrumental Ensemble (basically private lessons and doing some technique stuff and whatnot)

7. Advanced Science Zoology/Bio 107 (another dual credit class. Well, I get 5 college credits if I pass this class plus high school credit. Sweetness!)

So, as you can see, I'm going to be a very busy girl this year. And if you can't tell, I love music considering I have three classes of music in a row haha. It's fantastic.

Well, I must disappear for a little bit so I can get some transpositions done and do some homework ya know. Ugh it sucks and a lot of work, but welcome to senior year guys. "Year of slacking off." More like year of a bunch of writing lol.

I'm sorry that this is kinda short, but I really gotta get going so I don't fail my classes this year lmao. Haha ya I'm totally gonna bomb this year and get senioritis. I'm not like everyone else and just slack off and use the excuse, "well, I'm a senior now so I can do whatever the fuck I want because I rule this school." Nah, that ain't me. Call me a goody goody but whatever. Y'all just need to set your priorities straight and then life will be a little easier...at least that's what I was told and ya, life ain't getting any easier with me. Oh well. Fuck you guys too I guess. Not you that is reading of course so don't even get that in your head and then start bashing me. I talk out loud and that was directed to those who hurt me and lie to me and put me down and tell all these promises, but never actually keep them lol. So, no, that wasn't directed to you.

Oh, by the way, if you have a problem with me and my writing and would like to through some tips here and there or comment or want to talk to me because you're curious about something, private message me unless you want everyone to see your comments. That's fine with me. If I find the question that was left in the comments section to be too personal to share with the rest of the world, I'll look you up and private message you that way it's more of a one on one conversation.

Ok, this is actually later now. Haha. No, I don't say goodbye because that's a think that my boyfriend and I do. Goodbye means that you'll never talk or see the person again so we say later or something else along those lines.

THIS IS ACTUALLY THE LEGIT LATER NOW haha. I'll see ya guys later tomorrow when I get home again from school. I must play my clarinet and get to transposing some stuff. Yay me lmao.