This is like a story/poem? I don't know, but I tried. Goodnight, lovelies
When I'm sitting alone in my room
I'll get lost inside my mind
I'll get lost inside my doom
Wondering if you'd ever me so kind
Just to see what's inside
A broken little girl
Shattered heart
Holding the weight of the world
Slowly falling apart
Holding on to nothing
Just trying to stay on the ground
Tryna find something
I've truly been lost, yet I haven't been found.
I can't keep going to this way.
Wearing fabric smiles, beautifully twisted masks
Hiding all the hurt, hiding all the pain
They're just making bets on how much longer I last
A year, one said
Three months at most, muttered the old grubby man
And that's all I can hear, their voices oh so clear.
So I keep going, as long as I can
Simply in spite of them
Tryna prove them wrong
I'll be the winner in the end
5 years, said another
I used to love this young heart
He was basically my brother
But now he's just expecting me to fall apart
Its all a show to these sadists
Watching me suffer, watching me cry
It's true, I've never been the bravest
As I sit here in the cage of my mind
For as long as she shall live, I heard one call out
I looked up, clearly there's been a mistake
The poor young man, he'll loose a fortune no doubt
I was afraid, there was now so much at stake
I begged him to take back his bet
This brave soul was much to stubborn to convince
He told me I simply shouldn't fret
So I'll pray to someone I'll never believe in, tell them I'm sorry for all my sins
I learned to hold on to him, he had all my trust
I let him in, he had earned my love
That was until I was soon under the bus
And he was the one that gave me the shove
Turns out, the man I'd given everything for
Was just another rich drunk, trying to fill his greed by making a bet
I was nothing to him, just more money, for sure
He'd made a bet behind my back
I was foolish to ever think that someone could ever love me
And all I want to do is give myself a slap
Its the least I deserve for trying to believe
I was killed inside
Never to trust again
I needed a place to hide
But I couldn't, I was a mere puppet
And so I broke
17 men had gotten some money
And believe me, they were stoked
Turns out, misery loves my company
I now sit here in my brain, still locked in this cage
They'd given me the key, but no matter how hard I tried
In the same place I remained every single day
I couldn't get out, I was suck in my mind
Now you know what's inside
And you know how I'm so broken
I'm stuck in this place till the voices let me be alive
Because all I am to them is an old, copper token
