(Jungkook X Halla fanfic ) The Processing

33) A year with out you

February 12 , 2016

~Halla pov ~

tears rolled onto my face as I sat upwards in bed crying out loud . The door opens and Jane comes in looking at me worried . She comes sitting next to me and hugged me tightly as I cry onto her . She pats my back telling me its gonna be okay .

~Jungkooks pov ~

I looked out the window of the plane as I held in my tears thinking about her ... I love you Lee Suji . I turned my phone onto air plane mode and set it down . Closing my eyes I let the acing of my heart wonder around my brain tainting me of all the memories we shared.Even with eyes closed I cried.

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April 4 2016 ~ 2 months later

Spring arrived here in Seoul as cherry blossoms are getting ready to bloom and I started working again . I applied to Soul Universe but there terms there are wired . If I do get accepted I wouldn't start until September , then have only small breaks . Soon enough to start again in march . Ji Soo applied as well . Also , um he asked if you where doing okay . Hope you are okay ...I miss you a lot ..

Your Love ~ Lee Suji

June 13 2016 ~

Hows your life ? Mines been really boring with out you . Also Happy 3 years with bts !! im so happy for you and the boys ! Please tell me that there all doing okay as well you . Make sure to get sleep busy man . I see your V lives in hong kong and all over . Im glade I can see your face some how .. I just wish that smile was looking a me . I'm selfish , Anyways I love you so much .

Your Love ~ Lee Suju

July 26 2016 ~

It July and the weather is getting really hot .. I..I..dont know ... I just miss you a lot thats all I miss you ..

Your love ~ Lee Suji

September 1 2016 ~

How are you doing Jungkook ? have you been eating all your meals getting enough sleep resting . Ive been fine , I applied to a collage and got in to Seoul University , Ji Soo was accepted as well . We share a few classes here and there with each other but nothing really . I miss you a lot . I miss hearing your voice filling my ears . I do ... I cant wait until you come back so I can hug you, and never let you go . I love you Jungkook also happy birthday hope you had a good one with your members . Bye bye

Your Love ~ Lee Suji

I put it in the mail and start to head to the bus stop to get to class . Days went by really fast as I got use to this stuffy feeling in my chest that never left . No matter how much I try to distract myself . I couldn't . I just wished he wrote back . I got onto that bus sitting down closing my eyes . I here my phone go off as I pick it up . My eyes grew watery , as I dropped my phone . Omma ...

I pick my phone up and get off the bus running back getting a taxi and going to the hospital . So many thoughts ran my mind . But when I got there ... she died .

December 25 2016 ~

Its Christmas Jungkook and I sent you a gift ! I hope you like it ! The years almost over im really excited to see you again hopefully ! Um my life been tough , but im fighting ! I hope your having a nice Christmas.Also I've been thinking of you a lot , and I mean it a lot lot , I cant explain how much I miss you and wish I could just hug you forever .

Your love ~ Lee Suji ~

I went and sent my mail as well checked it , I looked and saw a letter for me ! I quickly open it and see it was from Jungkook !

I'm sorry for never getting the chances to hand write you back . I miss you a lot and love you too suji . I cant wait to see you too . Make sure to face time me when you can , tell Ji Soo I said congrats , as well hello . As for you .. I miss you ..

Your love ~ Jungkook

This letter was the best gift I could have wised for . I happily smiled and walked off .

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A week has gone by , and finals have came as I stressed out about it . Ji Soo and I stopped hang out as much as we use too ever scenes he got a girl friend . I miss hang out with him . I sighed seeing a white puffy cloud come out . I blew my breath into the air repeatedly , until the bus showed up. I get on and it was packed . I stand near a window , wear a high school girl sat , I listened to my music . While closing my eyes, I could feel a yank as  the bus slammed on the breaks crashing into a semi truck making us tip . I feel side ways and saw the high school girl bloody , My whole body hurt but I quickly , went and helped her . I grabbed my jacket and put it to her head where she was bleeding. Quickly I sat her up. I saw , and herd other people crying . I felt useless , as I was a victim as well . I looked around me see a pole . I picked it up smashing it into a window many times until it broke . I climbed outwards calling the police and helping people get out .

One at a time people helped each other climb out as the ambulances , fire trucks , and police came . I herd crying from a far . I crawl over seeing a little bot stuck under a seat . I reach my bloody hand to him, and pull as hard as I could . I was ready to give up until , I made eye contact with him . For the last time I pulled him out and gave him a hug . He cried tightly onto me as I helped him out . I looked around and saw the high school girl still there . I quickly went to her and helped her out . A nurse took her quickly and took her away . I sat there in the bus , as I looked at my bloody hands . I saw my bag and crawled over grabbing it . I sat there for a minute.

I wanted to give in I wanted to let go and just pass out . But I couldn't .. I couldn't make jungkook cry , I just cant leave him . All these thought stormed my brain as I slowly made my way out . Before I did I look seeing a dead body . I climb out and tears filled my eyes . A nurse took me into a ambulances and I started to cry as we went to the hospital .

"The high school girl ,"I cried .

"It okay shes gonna be fine ,"A paramedic tell me .

I keep crying as my body was mentally and physically in pain . Jungkook , please ..just show up . I need you more then ever . Please jungkook please . So many tears fell out of my eyes that day I felt as if it was never endless .

Jungkook i whisper before my eye lids shut tight .

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