Through Her Eyes

blockade

°•skylars pov•°
I woke up to Grayson moving and groaning .I glances up at him realizing he was still sleeping . so I got up deciding to get ready . I grabbed my speaker and went and showered . when I came back Grayson was still asleep . shaking. I new all to well what was happening . he was having a nightmare . I got dressed in joggers and a tank top throwing my hair in a messy bun. Grayson started groaning and shaking more so I decided top wake him up from the nightmare . I whispered softly "Grayson " and tapped his shoulder he didn't wake up so I started to softly shake him "Grayson!"with the blink of an eye he grabbed my throat and had me pinned under neath him . oh no my anxiety is acting up . my chest started to tighten and I couldn't breath" Skylar ?" He let go of me and I started shaking and gasping for air .he ghost off of me and set me in his lap "I'm sorry princess I thought you were someone else " I tried to breath but I couldn't my vision was fogging with tears . "Skylar breath " I couldn't my lungs were stinging I couldn't hold back the tears anymore . "princess breath in..in..out..in..out" I slowly started catching my breath . he pulled me closer to him and I laid my head on his shoulder as he rubbed my back "princess I'm sorry " I didn't answer .I wasn't going to . "princess . please talk to me. " I played with my sleeves" princess. Are you ignoring me " no I'm just not replying .I looked away."Skylar . talk to me." No thanks. "Skylar that's one strike " no. "N-no please !" He smirked "I told you princess I don't like repeating myself " I squirmed slightly as he gripped my waist .

I whispered quietly "what was your dream about ?" His jaw clenched . "what dream?" He is playing stupid. " the one you just had?" His grip tightened on me ."nothing . princess don't worry about it ." I want to know ."tell me please.." I really wanted to relate to him. I knew what he was going threw because I went through stuff to ."princess you don't tell me stuff so I won't tell you."I felt the all to familiar itching sensation on my wrist . "fine" was all I could say . I new his words were true . they were almost to true . I hated that I shut people out . it killed me but I an not letting him in like that I can't. I hated myself for it. "Princess-" I cut him off "no" with that I ran out of the room with him chasing me. I started crying and ran into the bathroom slamming the door in his face falling onto the floor. I cried for about five minutes while Grayson was banging on the door. I couldn't take it anymore . I grabbed my Razer and ran hot water over it and started crying . "princess ! Please! Open the door" no ."I'm not going to !" I ran my wrist under the hot water . "I will NOT. Ask again Skylar " I took a deep breath ignoring him and pressed the razor on my wrist slowly sliding it down creating a cut. I let one more tear fall before I but myself more . it numbed my pain. It took me away from reality . just then I heard a loud bang and dropped the razor looking at the door."SKYLAR!" I quickly hid the razor pulling down my sleeves."I'm going to break the door in three seconds! " I felt the familiar sting in my chest ."one" I stood up "two" I walked to the door "three" I unlocked it and opened the door . he stared at me ."I have to go " before I could walk out he picked me up putting me on the counter . pulling my sleeves up . he looked hurt as he saw my cuts . he leaned down and kissed everyone of them . I sat in shock .