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"No no no nooooo!!" I yelled at the tv...1d lost...but at least they got 3rd..and they still got signed!! OMG I wanna go to a concert so bad!!! Anyways I was now up in my room alone cuz the girls said they couldn't come over and I was thinking about what was said in the locker room...I mean what they said was probably true I'm still fat and I'm not perfect and I know one thing that helps these thoughts...I went over and grabbed the blade. This happens every year I'm clean all summer then when I go back to school it happens again...I put the blade to my wrist and swiped it along my wrist. I cut until I had no feeling in my wrist that's when the hurt went away it always has been that way. Nobody knew about this part if me cutting I'm the only one and it's gonna stay that way. I went to the bathroom and cleaned my wrist and threw the blade across the bathroom floor I then went to my bed and curled up and cried my self to sleep,thinking is it worth it to anyone if I live till tomorrow.....

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I woke up the next morning and went to my bedside cabinet and pulled my bracelets out. I went and go a shower letting the water run over my body while thinking I always think about well everything in the shower it's very peaceful..I turned the water off after I was done and threw my hair in a bun I jut put on some eyeliner and and mascara. I went to my closet and pulled out some yoga pants and a t-shirt ya 2nd day of school and I'm already wearin sweatpants it's gonna be a loonnnggg year. I pulled out my mocisons and up them on and grabbed my bag. I went downstairs and grabbed an orange from the counter and ran out the door...a long day ahead I thought as I left the house.

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Hey guys how ya doin sorry haven't updated I lovers u guys!!

~Tessa