...smile...

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"Hahahaha!! You're so funny!"

"Of course I am!" The girl said smiling at her trying to be with her...clinging with her...

"Oh no! I need to go now! See you next time!!"

'No...please...don't go...' the girl said in her mind...

"S-sure! See you next time!!" What can she do anyways? Her 'friend' doesn't like her anyways...she's just fitting in...

She hold her backpack's strap, hiding the sadness...she started walking towards her home all alone...just like always...as she passed by the neighborhood she heard kids playing, woman and man talking and laughing, and people having a fun time.

She envy all the people...why can't she be just free? Why...?

She hide her frown and change it with a smile. She's been named 'Smile' since she was a kid...she's always smiling and laughing with the odds. The people around her doesn't care about her they just see her as a person...or doll...but hey things change and they ignored her, but people said that she's special...she's something...

'Lies...' Her mind fog with anger...she doesn't like her life...she wants to change it...but she can't she always choose the wrong firefly.

She stopped in front of her home...she walk in and place her bag in the clean floor. She look around...dull room...dull atmosphere...just dull...dull...

She let out a bitter laugh and walk to her room and change her clothes. Touching the bandages and stitches around her body. Counting one of them...

"1...2...3...4...5...6...7...8...9...10...11...12...13...14...15...and...16." She said touching her newly fresh scar. She put a bandage and put her clothes tying her hair into a bun. She walk to her front door taking her bag and walk to the living room. She sit in her couch placing her bag in the coffee table.

She turn on the T.V looking for any interesting news. As she flip the channels to another her eyes caught something. She look at the drawer and on top of that is the family picture when she was a kid.

Her usual smile turn into a frown. Ignoring the picture she take her notebook and start studying while listening to songs.

_20 Minutes Later_

She closed her notebook and look at her window. She stand up walking towards it. She look around outside.

"It's almost night time..." She said blinking her frown turn into a smile. She loves night time oblivious as about what will happen next.

She prepared her bag and take a left over food in the fridge. Heating it up then eating it. Excited for tonight.

When she's done she wash the dishes and look at the mirror last time. She smile and twitched looking at herself. Long black hair...orange eyes that shines...pale skin...

She hates her appearance every single inch of her being. She hates it, but this is what she is now. She can't change it.

She sigh and take her bag and open the door. She's ready and happy that her 'friends' invited her. She's excited, this is the first time in her life that someone invited her...

She grin and start skipping towards the old park. That is where they are going to meet each other and she's excited.

She stopped in front of the old park, she dropped her bag and look around. The old park reminded her that past. Her grin turned into a sad smile. Looking around, the swings are there but it's rusty...the slides...benches...

She missed that past...
She missed all of them...
She missed the times where they can still laugh and smile...
She hates herself for moving on...
She hates herself for growing up...
She hates herself for choosing the wrong firefly...