It's A Folly

Midoriya Izuku was a simple middle school boy. A little too simple if you ask his classmates or the people around him; boring and useless if you ask Bakugou Katsuki.

However, just like most kids that puberty hit, amazing changes begin.

Well, not much changed. The usual freckles are there; the usual big round and curious green eyes are there; the usual unmanageable dark locks are there.

But guess what, first year highschool Deku has got the real toned abs now.

"What the fuck?" Bakugou once too many times said.

Adorable and cute Midoriya Izuku has the oh-so glorious body chiseled and crafted by the gods but Katsuki will never admit even though there were obvious times that he was caught staring while they were in the changing room.

...

Kaminari Denki likes talking about girls. Girls are cute and pretty. Bakugou definitely likes girls, he himself proclaimed as if reassuring everyone about it. But even more to himself.

"No one cares."
A rather cold remark from Todoroki.

His back facing Bakugou and doesn't even bother to look at him. And what the fucking fuck? Is he sitting with Deku again?

And useless fucking shitnerd is too busy with his nerd book too so maybe no one actually cares?

Oh wait-- nope, the great king of explodo kill doesn't give a shit if useless Deku cares or not, except he kinda does give a tiny little shit about it.

So he grabbed the busy Midoriya's hand away from the notebook and forced him to look at him.

"K-kacchan? What is it?" Izuku asked.

The way his long eyelashes flutter while looking up and how his lips tremble while muttering his childhood friend's nickname sent shivers down Katsuki's spine.

"Stop acting cute you fucking nerd!" He shouted.

"O-okay?" The confused Izuku answered, repeating the earlier action.

Bakugou is fighting so hard not to let the blood color his cheeks. Oh hell no would he blush in front of this nerdlord, specially in front of the whole class.

"Fuck it!" He yelled, letting go of this abomination of cuteness this world ever created and making his way out of the room.

"I'm trying." Todoroki answered, loud enough for everyone to hear.

And Iida swears he saw how every angry vain popped on Bakugou's forehead before setting the whole floor in explotion.

...

Aizawa sensei was too nice for not expelling the whole class and he was the god of mercy for not kicking Bakugou and Todoroki out too.

He nearly throw them out of the widow tho, when he was told what was the reason of the commotion. (Thank you class president.)

...

Midoriya ran immediately towards them when he spotted them exiting the guidance office.

"H-how did it go?" He nervously asked.

Todoroki smoothly stepped closer and placed reassuring hands on Izuku's shoulders; A little too close for a friend's casual touch but fucking fucmunch doesn't care at all.

"Kacchan, y-you okay?" He asked the blond who seems to be lost in thoughts.

Midoriya was prepared for his childhood friend to snap at him and shout his trademark profanities again but surpringsingly it did not come.

Bakugou must be tired. Too tired to comment about how Todoroki's hand interlaced with Deku's without hesitation and how it looks so effortlessly easy and natural.

Bakugou knows how he is so angry like 99% of the time but when he is this quiet he knows he's fucked.

He is thinking- thinking of how would those calloused and oddly deformed fingers feel against his instead of todoroki's; thinking of what would it feels like to have those eyes focused on him with worry or perhaps adoration, instead of fear; thinking if he could actually count all of the freckles on his cheeks and nose if he were to lean close to him... close-- like close enough that their lips would brush against each other and their breaths would mix together.

But isn't it a little too late now for those thoughts?

He would threaten to kill Izuku. He would intimidate him with harsh words and brute force but the truth is he doesn't want to hurt Izuku anymore. This, what they have isn't so bad at all. At least their relationship is better now compared to how they were before. They're not friends but rivals. Deku maybe dumb at times but he does not take him as nothing. Deku may not be the strongest yet but even so, he is slowly but steadily becoming a threat to his dream of being the top hero, and feelings--stupid feelings would only confuse both of them.

"Just get out of my sight, Deku." Katsuki snarled at them.

All he want right now is to be alone.

'How dare you pine for that nerd.' He'd scold himself.

It doesn't even matter anymore when it started. What's important is how would it end. Attending the same school and pursuing the same career might make things difficult for him. He might as well suffer through these shitty feelings without anyone knowing. Hell, he would take this down to the grave and he would kill anyone who dares to know.

Katsuki watched them leave. This won't be the first and last time that he would watch them from afar. From then on he would find himself watching the two share their lives with each other.

It's not okay.
He's not...
But there are just things that even him can't have.

He watched Izuku slowly turn his back on him.

He watched his childhood friend lean close and smile at Todoroki so endearingly.

Bakugou Katsuki watched his first love share a haste kiss on the lips with his classmate.