Delicated to @yungdollaz2
I couldn't sleep after my talk with Craig last night, it made so many thoughts flow through my mind. But it finally feels good to know we could start "fresh". I can't hide it anymore, I admit, I miss him. There hasn't been a time I haven't, through everything...he was main reason I pushed through.
I know I'm so indecisive, one minute I hate him next minute it's all mushy stuff. I dunno what it is about him, that just gets me all weak in the inside. He was my first love.
I get out of bed, do my hygiene and head downstairs to prepare breakfast.
I open the refrigerator and get some eggs, and bacon. My phones vibrates, indicating I just got a message. I unlock my phone and see a message from Ashley, the head of the Walmart I work at. It read
Good morning Janelle,
I just wanted to thank you for all you've done to help the company, but I'm sorry to inform that your service is no longer required. I'm sorry.
Have a good day.
My heart sank into my stomach. How am I suppose to coup with bills and shit. I can't depend on Craig, I mean he's leaving soon.
"Good morning!" I give a fake smile "Morning" I reply nonchalantly while he smiles his beautiful smile.
"What's up? You don't look happy"
"Nothing" I shake my head trying not to let this bring me down
"Okay." He shrugs not believing me but I think he gets the hint not to push it. "Janelle,...are you cooking?" He gasps playfully trying to lighten up the mood.
"No, I'm cleaning" I reply sarcastically while rolling my eyes. "Wait, you know how to cook?... The Janelle I knew, didnt even know how to toast bread properly"
"Shut up! I've learned a couple things by being a mother" I chuckle and he laughs
"Aight, lemme help you"
"Nah, it's fine. I don't want you burning this house down" we both laugh
"Around 12:00 we're going to meet up with the guys" he states, waiting for my reaction, cause we all know I always react. I simply shrug "Okay"
"Alright, ah get ready when you done" he replies kind of shocked at my reaction.
I finished cooking and set the the table for all of us...I'm in a very interesting mood today.
"Craig, Troy come downstairs. Breakfast is ready" I call to them. They come down and sit at the table.
"What is this supposed to be?" Craig questions chuckling.
"Eggs and bacon with toasted bagel and cream cheese" he laughs "Why did you put bacon bits in the egg"
"If you don't want it, I'd be glad to take your plate" Troy buds in, I smile at him kissing his forehead.
"At least someone is thankful" I take my seat before taking a bite of what I call 'egg-bacon surprise'
After everyone finishes their breakfast, I go upstairs to go shower and put myself in tank top and knee-cut shorts and my hair in a bun.
As I walk down the stairs there's Craig and Troy watching cartoons. I smile at the sight, it was...beautiful.
"I'm ready." They both look up to the stairs when I was standing
"Aight, let's go" Craig says getting off the couch. "We're going to pick up Ariana and her sister first"
"Okay." I reply blankly, with a hint of annoyance
"You don't seem excited? don't you remember Chrissan?" I shake my head...no "I'm surprise, you don't remember your own best friend" best friend? She don't seem like the type I'd be fucking with.
"Huh?"
"We're you locked in a closet or something? Chrissan, your best friend. My ex " I tried to connect the pieces but they didn't make sense. I look at him dumbfounded "Never mind"
We get into the car and drive off to Ariana's house.
When we arrive, they were already on the porch waiting. " hey Janelle" Ariana smiles
"Hi" I wave at her as she goes sit in the back, her sister walks in reluctantly and only greets Craig.
"Hi, Chrissan" I greet her trying to be the bigger person, she doesn't reply. "She's not in a good mood right now" Ariana buds in....Mhm.
We drove off to the hotel and we headed into Chresanto's suite, where the guys were all chilling with Anastasia.
"Hey guys" Prince greets looking over at me, I'm not happy and he knows. We sit in the couch and chill. Trying to make every last moment count.
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It was now 7:00pm and we were now at the tour bus. Saying our final good byes. I am going to miss Prince...alot.
I hug Ray and move on to Chresanto, telling them that I would miss them. Then it finally came to Prince. I look down, short of words. I can't just say I gonna miss him, it's more than that. He takes my hand and we go on a small walk.
" I gonna miss you" he finally spoke up
"Yeah, me too" he stops to face me smiling. We were under a big willow tree.
"Remember this?" He says looking up, I look up too realizing it was the place, where Prince and I shared our first kiss. "Yeah" I smile a little looking away.
"Janelle what's wrong?" I wasn't planning to tell him but I knew it would be the only way to feel a bit relieved.
"I lost my job" I reply in a low tone, he hugs me "I'm sorry to hear that"
"Don't worry thought. We got you" I smile looking into his eyes, they sparkled causing me to get this feeling in my stomach. I smile real wide before smashing my lips unto his. He kisses me back making the butterflies in my stomach dance with joy. As the kiss got intense, I began to shove my fingers in his Afro as he grips unto my waist tighter. The sun was setting and the gentle breeze of the evening was blowing nicely. It was the perfect goodbye kiss.
He pulls away and smiles "What was that for?" Really nigga? after kissing me back you wanna ask questions "For fun" I reply, he chuckles. He checks his watch while I look around, I feel like I'm being watched.
"Let's go" he takes my hand and we walk back over to the bus, where his manger looked kind of upset.
"We've been looking everywhere for you Prince, where have you been?"
"On a walk, sorry Walter" Walter nods "Hurry up and get in the bus" he says going inside the bus himself. Prince turns his attention back to me.
"Prod told me you forgave him, I'm proud of you" I smile "Thanks"
"Bye Janelle" he kisses my forehead, and gets on the bus. "Bye" I call after him. I turn around and there's Ray standing in front of me with a smirk.
"What?" I ask playfully
He puckers up his lips, while I look at him in disgust
"Show daddy some sugar"
"Ew"
"That's not what you were saying to Prince" I look at him in shock.
"Ray-" I began about to come up with a lie, he chuckles "You like Prince don't you?"
"No-" only a little. "-We're just friends"
"Right. Y'all have always been benefitical friends" he winks, I smirk a little pushing him. "Bye Ray"
"Bye" he smiles before getting into the bus.
I head back to the car, where everyone was waiting for me.
"Sorry guys. I was talking to Prince" Craig nods, now opening the door to the car.
"Hoe" Chrissan mumbles as I enter the car.
What's up with this girl? Like really? I can't even imagine being just friends with her, talk about ever being "best friends" with her.
She's such a hater.
