My thoughts (Camren)

Chapter 1

"Ms. Cabello?", the women at the front desk yelled. I was the only one in the room next to my mother."Ms. Camila Cabello?",the lady yelled louder.

I felt a tug on my sweater. I opened my eyes and sat up, "Mija, your appointment.", My mom said in a whisper. I stood up and went to the desk. "Just step right in", the lady said with a smile. I didn't bother to smile back.

I made my way to the door and looked back at my mom. She was reading a home and decor magazine, she didn't look up. I took a breath
in and a breath out before entering the room.

The room was cold, as usual. No one was in the room so I took a seat on the couch i sat in many times before. I laid on the couch waiting for the lady that usually comes in. I closed my eyes and waited.

I was woken up by the sound of fast heals on the wood floor. "Wow it's freezing in here", a lady said in a tight dress, rubbing her forearms to keep warm. She turned the air conditioning off. I've never seen her before but God bless her for turning that stupid air conditioner off.

"I take it you're Camila", i nod. She reaches her hand out,"hi Camila, I'm Lauren". I don't shake her hand and it falls to her side."I'm sorry, you must be wondering 'what the hell is she doing here', well I'm you're new therapist. You're old therapist, Mrs. Weldon was it? She got offered a higher paying job and took it."

The smile on her face faded once she saw how unamused I was, "How old are you, you look young".

"Uh, I'm 20 and you're 19 so yea, we are really close in age", the lady said. I sat up, how is she my therapist. She literally only a year older than me.

"Aren't you a little too young to be working as a therapist?" I asked. She walk over to the desk that Mrs. Weldon sat in, took the chair and rolled it over to me. She sat down two feet away from me, "My father owns this building, when I told him I was looking for a job and he gave Mrs. Weldon a higher job, she's literally still in this building, She on the 3rd floor. He gave me offers to some other jobs but I was always told by friends and family that I was a good listener, so I took this one. I need the money and it's pretty easy just listening to people".

She was a pretty funny girl, she seemed easy to talk to, to connect with, but I couldn't give her credit," So I'll be seeing you for now on?" Not that I'm complaining.

"Correct", she said in a happy tone ,"let's get started shall we?". Oh, she's gonna make me talk...I always dreaded therapist. I always just thought, they don't really care, they're just doing their job and getting paid to listen, they don't care. I looked down at my hands. They were twitching. I looked up at Lauren, she had the most Sincere smile on her face. I felt the corners of my mouth tug but I quickly said "ok" before I gave into the smile.
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"So Camila, I have this card, I want you to write five insecurities and on the back of the card write five things you like about yourself", she said handing me the card and a pen,"you have five minutes and then I want the card back, one, two, three go".

I wrote my five insecurities faster than when I wrote my Christmas wish list. Now the hard part, what do I like about myself?

The five minutes passed and Lauren asked for the card back. "Camila...you only wrote one thing you like about yourself"."It was the only thing I like about myself", I said looking a the pen, I was clicking it in my hands. She took the pen away from me,"Camila..., you only like your hair?".

I crossed my arms and she did the same to mimic me,"Don't make me change my mind"."Camila-", she said getting up throwing away the card, "look at me. I love your hair. I like the shape of your eyes. Your voice is really nice. Your hands, they don't look fat like mine. And Your face shape is really, really nice."

I felt my heat stop and start beating again,"What was that?"."Complements. I complemented you", she said."why?"

She got up and pored us both waters,"Because Camila, I like those things about you and I feel like they're appealing enough to to bring to your attention", she said with a smirk.

I took a sip of the cold water, it was a shock and it made me realize how Hot it was. I set the cup down and took off my sweater. I tossed my sweater next to me and took a huge gulp of the water. I felt relaxed, I never felt confident enough to take my sweater off around people I didn't know but today, right now, felt different.

"Well Camila, that's it for today", she said getting up and taking my cup. I looked out the window. I hadn't known how much time passed, it was already dark out. I grabbed my sweater and We made our way to the door. She opened it for me,"See you Monday?", I nodded and she smiled, closing the door between us.

My mom stood up and I opened the door for both of us."Mija, you're not wearing your sweater", she said smiling at me. "I know mom", I said ,"It feels nice out today".
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