My thoughts (Camren)

Chapter 3

Camilas pov
We were walking down the fruit and vegetable aisle,"Mija, can you go get me some cilantro?"

I nodded and pulled my hoodie over my head and made my way over to the vegetables. I grabbed a batch and put in a plastic bag. My mom had left and I went looking for her.

A few minutes passed and I went through the whole store trying to find her. I couldn't. I was about to drop on the floor and cry." Camila?", I hear the familiar voice and turn around."Lauren?", I say in shock. I make my way to her,"hi."

She looked at me with a concern look,"Are you ok? You looked like you were about to faint". Honestly I was.

"Oh, uh. No, I was just looking for my mom and couldn't find her", I said false smiling so she wouldn't be able to see how terrified I was.

"Oh, hey I have some spare time. I can help you look", she said with a smile. I nodded accepting the offer,"that would be nice. Thanks"

A couple minutes passed before I felt like giving up. "Hey, isn't that her?", I head Lauren ask. My head shot up,"mom!" I wanted to cry. I got all worked up and it felt so good seeing my mom again.

"Mila, I was looking for you", she said looking at me with a worried smile. "I was looking for you, Lauren helped me find you", I said looking back at Lauren. I mouthed a 'thank you'. Lauren smiled and walked away.
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"Mila", Normani begged,"please come".

Mani was trying to convince me to go with her, Niall and Dinah to a pizza place. Tomorrow."Mani...", I said biting my lip,"I can't".

"Mila please", she begged harder.

After a few attempts I finally gave in. "Fine, I'll go. But only bc I want to get away from my mom and get some air". "Yes!", Normani yelled,"thank you. Yay!"

This would be the second time I'll see Dinah since the party. I know how I'd handle it.

Normani's phone rang and she answered it.
"Sorry mila I got to go home", Normani said walking out,"I'll see you tomorrow. Goodnight". She smiled and closed my room door.
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A month since the party

"She pregnant?!", my dad yelled from the other room. I locked my room door and sat on my bed,"how did you let this happen!"

"I didn't know what was going on!", my mom yelled, "I thought she was with Dinah."

"I can't believe this!" I heard my dad yell. Then I heard a door slam.

I hear my door handle jiggle."open the damn door now mila!" , my dad yells."Mike, no stop", my mom pleaded. It's silent for a minute. Then I heard The door being unlocked.

The door opens. My mom gets infront of my dad trying to stop him from coming to me. He pushes her out of the way. Then He slaps me,"you're not my daughter!"
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"Mija", I hear my mom voice,"mila wake up."

I open my eyes. My mom is over me trying to wake me up,"you were crying in your sleep".

I sit up and hug her, tears falling from my face."shh shh it ok", she says rubbing my back and I fall back to sleep.
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Lauren clears her throat,"your mom told me you've been having nightmares?"

"I don't wanna talk about them", I say, Anger in the tone of my voice. Lauren's smile fades away.

"I want you to have this", she says handing me a gift wrapped object. I open it,"a journal?"

Lauren's smile slowly comes back,"yea. I just wanted to give you something and I thought a journal would be a good gift".

"Why?What for?", I asked skimming through all the pages. There was a note written on the first page 'write about everything and anything- Lauren' and a smiley face next to her name.

"For when ever you're feeling passionate, write a poem or a song. Write about your nightmares", Lauren paused," or your dreams, Write about people". She hands me a pen. On it was written 'favorite pen'.

"Thanks Lauren", I say taking the pen. Lauren smiles.

"So today I had a really cool idea", she said handing me a couple bracelets. One read 'confidence' another read 'beautiful' another read 'strong' and the fourth read 'love yourself''. "Wow did you make these?", I ask taking the bracelets. She nods,"I had some spare time",she said smiling,"I want you to always look at these when you're feeling sad". I put them on.

"I want you to make a bracelet tonight about what best describes you", she said handing me bracelet bands and alphabet letter beads,"I want you to show me tomorrow what you made."

I looked up at the clock and saw our time was up. With Lauren a half hour passed like two minutes. With ms. Weldon we would sit in silence for what seemed like hours because I refused to talk.

Lauren walked me to the door,"I'll be expecting that bracelet tomorrow cabello."
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"Camila you ready?", Normani yelled from outside the bathroom door,"it's almost time to go. They're probably already there waiting for us".

I was getting ready for the group hangout tonight. I did my makeup and put on a baggy jacket with black jeans. The thought of seeing Dinah again made me scared.

"I'm ready", I said opening the bathroom door and walking out of the house."finally", Normani said thankfully.

She drove up to the pizza place and we made our way inside. We saw Niall and Dinah sitting in a booth having a conversation. I inhaled deeply and Normani looked my way and I exhaled, walking forward to the two.

"Mila-", Dinah said looking away from Niall,"hi", She said standing up from the booth.

I backed away and it was silent. I looked around and saw all three of their eyes on me. I looked back at Dinah and stepped forward, hugging her tightly. I felt Nialls and Normanis eyes on us.

"I missed you", I said not letting go of Dinah.

"I miss you too", Dinah said somehow pulling me in tighter.

We let go and smiled, sitting down into the booth.
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We all talked for hours, talk about things like school and everything I missed. Dinah had ordered a extra large pizza and we couldn't even finish half of it.

Normani drove me home. Niall driving Dinah home.

"Night mila", Normani said walking me to the door,"tonight was great."

I hugged her and she left. I put the Extra pizza slices into the fridge and made my way to my room to sleep.
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"Mila", my mom said petting my head on the hospital bed,"you don't have to do this".

I nodded,"yes. I do".

The doctor came into the room,"Are you sure you don't wanna keep the baby?", he asked. I nodded. He frowned, handing me a pill bottle with one single pill and a water bottle. The damage was done. No going back.

I woke up and scanned the room. I picked up the journal. Looking at it for a minute before opening and writing in it.
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