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subject: all you do before is make me dream but now i'm only left with nightmares
you know what fucking sucks? waking up at two in the fucking morning, drenched in a mixture of my own tears and sweat, my heart aching everytime i move and i cant fucking do anything about it. i cant calm down or stop these tears from falling because i feel like someone's ripping my heart and my throat feels constricted. i fucking hate it, jimin, so much because no matter how i make myself believe that i dont need you, i cant. i just fucking cant. because you still linger in my heart and my mind and why, why, why, why did you break up with me? what did i do wrong? did you find someone better than me? are you tired of me? just why? you cant just send me a text telling me its over because its not! i deserve to know the reason why, so i shouldnt be overthinking things because this isnt healthy for me! you know that! i fucking hate you for making me feel this way but why does my heart says the opposite? just why in the fucking world am i so in love for you? youre toxic to me, jimin. i hope you know that.
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