Hindi ko alam kung bakit naging ganito. Hindi ko alam kung kailan nag umpisa.
We were so happy and contented back then. You told me once that only death can take us apart. Pero hindi pa ako mamatay at alam kong napakalakas mo pa para mamatay. It was our fifth anniversary when you took me out for a dinner date somewhere in Makati. You were cold that night, I thought you were just tired. I started the conversation but you were just nodding and smiling with what I say.
I was supposed to give you my gift when you told me the heartbreaking words.
"Let's break up".
I froze. I couldn't utter a single word. Inisip ko na joke time lang. Pero nang tiningnan kita, nandun ang kaseryosohan sa sinabi mo.
"Why?" That was the only word came out with my mouth. Tumingin ako sa taas dahil any moment, babagsak ang mga luha ko.
"I don't love you anymore. I love someone else. I'm so sorry."
There! Tuluyan na akong umiyak sa harap mo. "But you told me you love me. Sabi mo pa nga kamatayan lang ang pwedeng maghiwalay sa atin. Bakit may iba ka na? Kailan pa?"
"A month ago." You tried to hug me but I flinched.
"Im so sorry. You deserve someone better and that someone is not me."
Tumayo ako right after you uttered those fvcking words.
"I loved you but right at this very moment, I hate you. No, I loath you. I will take you out of my life like you never existed." Then I left, pero bago ako lumayo, sinulyapan muna kita sa huling pagkakataon. And I saw you crying. . .
Sobrang sakit. Sa sobrang sakit ng nararamdaman ko noon, umiyak lang ako ng umiyak pagdating ko sa bahay. Those memories with you is killing the hell out of me everytime I tried to I close my eyes. Galit na galit ako sayo pero mas nagagalit ako sa sarili dahil hindi ko alam kung nagkulang ba ako sayo kaya iniwan mo ko.
Two days ago after you broke up with me, your mother called me up. Wag daw akong mabibigla dahil wala ka na. Patay ka na dahil sa sakit mong cancer na pilit mong nilabanan 2 years ago. Wala akong alam. Hindi ko alam na may sakit ka because everytime we were together, you never complained anything wrong about your health.
And now, all I want is to be with you. So, I jumped off on the 27th floor of the building. Thinking nothing but to be with you forever. . .
