My Hero

Young & Unhappy

Wow I never known I would graduate my high school and try to move on with my life but I can't because I'm just worthless sometimes I wonder why am I here but I just am. My love for Danny never faded but he's not the main reason I'm like this... It'll all started as a kid my dad would abuse me physically he had hard days at work and when I wanted to play he just took it out all on me and my mother. But we escaped we moved to New York during my middle school years. I had no time for goodbyes to my friends it was just pack all your bags while he's gone or sleeping and get the fuck out of that house. We went from Connecticut all the way to New York. And I remember we were happy my 11 year old self singing to cheetah girls and eating powdered donuts on the way there and my mom would sing with me now don't you smile it's suppose to be a sad story but that was a happy moment. Soon I was 12 my mom had a boyfriend at the time his name was Keith he was nice like a father figure. But he was strange at night while I was in my room he would come in and put a bandana over my mouth and give me hickeys and touch me all sorts of ways. I tried to scream but no one can hear me so I just laid there and cry myself to sleep. Finally when I though I was home alone he took me to my room tied me down and raped me I screamed but who could hear me until finally my mom came home and walked in on me crying and tied down with blood on my sheets because I'm 12 and a virgin well not anymore. My mom called the cops but he took her phone and broke it they came anyways he had a gun pointed towards me and my mom she was on the floor crying until the cops bursts in and got him arrested. They took pictures for evidence and they sent me to therapy. For a year me and my mom were a happy family,Keith was locked up,I was feeling better,and school was great. One rainy night the doorbell rang and it was my Dad as much as I didn't want to let him in he went to therapy and he changed. So my mom took him back it took me along time to adjust that my father who used to beat the shit out of me was back and better. As I turned 15 I was in high school and I met my love Daniel (Danny) Martins He was a black broad guy funny, Honor Roll Student, Athletic, and had hazel eyes. We met in Honors Math and we connected always studying together & having fun together all the time we went on many dates we dated through out high school he was the love of my life. We were the only Interracial Couple that lasted so long. We graduated High School together and planned on living together until he said on our way back to my graduation party "Sarah I have to go I'm sorry this is short notice but I have to pack up and get going ." I panicked and wondered if this was a joke but he was crying then I said as I caressed his cheek  "Baby where are you going aren't going to live with me for college." He said letting go of my hand "Sarah I have to go wait for me while I'm away." And he left in his car and never seen him since.  I went inside to my party and faked smiled and tried to have fun until everybody asked me where is Danny and exploded. My parents bought me a condo in Manhattan the next day and left never called me to check up on me at all. I went to college I wanted to be a Dentist but then I called it a quits and just stayed home doing drugs and drinking alcohol. Which leads me to now I was on my couch watching Pretty Little Liars until finally enough is enough I grab my car keys and went to this bridge and parked my car . I threw my phone in the water and I was crying my eyes out I looked at the time it is 3:30 a.m. I couldn't take it anymore this Army Solider was behind saying "I don't know much about you and I don't know your life and what you've been through but don't end it all now when God can give you unlimited chances to start over and to become a better person you can't  changed the past but you can change the future." I thought of what he said and I turned to him and said.  "Too bad I've made my decision" And I jump but he ran and caught me and pulled me over he was on top of me on the street whispering in my ear it'll be alright his hands looked familiar I finally opened my eyes and turned and looked away " I can't look at you remind me too much of my boyfriend or ex I don't know what we are and he picked me up and lead me to my car and he said "I know what we are" he said caressing my cheek and kissed me. And it all made sense and I said crying "Danny is it you?"and he smiled while crying "Yes Sarah"..........