Tronnor Oneshots

outed;

highschool au

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The loud, blaring noise of people's conversations over the most bizarre, stupid problems and the sound of shoes squeaking on the floor; it was all just noise to Connor. The smallest problems and little things. No one at school knows what Connor's going through.

Only Troye and Jacob that is.

The only two boys in the school he could tolerate, his only real friends.

Well, Jacob was a friend. But with Troye..

that was another thing.

Because I wouldn't call
small kisses
cuddles all night
i love you's
the average friendship

but I was difficult for them to keep the relationship on the down-low. It wasn't like there was a problem with them as a whole or their relationship.

Connor wasn't out to his parents.
His school.

He also had a problem at times accepting himself.

Everytime he thinks that he can come out or say "hey I'm gay!" to everyone, he thinks about what will happen after.

(flashback)

"Troye, I can't do it", Connor says, tears pouring down his face as Troye comforts him pulling him in for a hug.

"Connor, there's nothing wrong with being gay. Even so, once you come out, I swear, you will be so happy. And, I will be right by your side." He answers, putting a gentle kiss on his forehead.

'Maybe I can do this'
'Life would be amazing, huh?'
'But.."

"Troye, I would love to come out. It's not that I have a problem with coming out or being gay. It's what everyone else thinks. Trust me, if I had a some magical, mysterious device that could make people believe that everyone can love who they want, I would do it. " I pause to catch my breath, not long before starting again.

"But I don't."

"They won't accept me and I just have to deal with that for the rest of my life. I can't do it. The stares, the whispers when walking down the hallways, and all I can think about is people silently judging me. Probably not just silently too. Like remember what happened with you? It was horrible, and I'm not as brave as you. You walk into a room and don't care a shit about what anyone has to say to you; at all. I'm not that strong. I could never be like you..." Connor trails off, letting the tears fall one again, more than the first time.

Troye takes a moment to take in all that Connor had just confessed to him until he opens his mouth.

"Look, Connor. I'm not forcing you to come out. I want you to feel as comfortable as possible and to know that this is all you. I care about enough to tell you that this is your life. Your life as in no one else can tell you or change you. If someone doesn't like you for who you are or who you love, then forget about them. You only have one life, and wouldn't you rather live your life free and happy without the people who won't accept you for who you completely are, or live the life they want you to live, with the people who love the fake you, the Connor who isn't happy?"

Connor looks down at his hands, contemplating what to say.

"Connor, I get it. I went through the same thing. But trust me, there are people out there who will love you. Like me. And you will never have to be like me. Because you are Connor. The cute, happy Connor I know and love. And l'm sure everyone will love that side of Connor just as much as I do. I love you, Connor."