Well currently I am attending SUNY Ulster under Human Serivces major. I plan on being a guidance counselor when I get older. My main goal is to attend Ulster for two years and then transfer to a college in the city with my lovey fiance. Oh. Did I mention that he is the most amazing person I ever met in my life that has never left. He is one of a kind person. I love him to death. He is more my best friend and my soul mate in one person. But anyway right now is the day before my 19th birthday. Some may say I should be exited. While others are all butt-heads. I am looking forward to working on my birthday at my favorite job. As well as a family birthday dinner with my in laws and baby on Friday night. And last but not lease a family dinner with my family and my baby.
As November comes to an end once agian, I have one less friend. I guess college changes people. I guess going different directions does that to. People become who they truly are suppose to be during the last years of high school. I loved them all to death but then there is a time in your life when they change into the person you never knew. I lost many friends throughout high school. Only the true ones stayed. Like my mama told me "If you keep having to put more effort in the friendship than it isn't worth the extra mile'. My mommy is one amazing woman.
She always knows what to say and how to say it. Even if I tend to piss her off. But anyway. I learned that if I am always the first one to text someone first than they don't really have the time for me. Instead of setting myself to get hurt and feel like a pain in the ass I stopped. Then I get blamed for changing. Maybe I never changed. Maybe I did. But all I know is that I am who I am suppose to be.
If I hurt anyone that isn't my friend right now. I am sorry that my life is finally on track and I am hard working person. I am sorry that I have morals and got tired of letting people walk all of me. I got hit by life. And oh how I may hate it sometimes I enjoy every minute of it. I love my life. I can't wait for all my hard work to pay off. I can't wait to enjoy all my accomplishments. I do have a few til this day. For example, like not getting knocked up before I was seventeen or eighteen. OH I forgot! I am not like most girls where I am from. I wasn't interested in that kind of stuff. I was more interested in my school work and my future. I guess you can call me a nerd or goody goody. But hey. I wouldn't be where I am today with out my brainances.
