i'll show you - jb

Chapter 14 ~ Book 1 ~ Read All of Outro! Important

Read All of Outro! Important

It's been a week since me and Justin has talked. I'm tired of this game we play. I'm done with him! He always starts shit ad then bugs me when I do something when he does the same thing but worse.

Ugh he just gets me so fucking angry. I get out of bed remembering that Jason is gone,

Great the guy I turn to most is gone! I then head to the bathroom brushing my teeth and throwing on a pair of leggings and a tank top. I scurry to the kitchen and I eat a crumpet and drink some iced tea.

I then bring my food onto the marble counter and I make majorly edit my video (also trying to majorly editing my life irl).

I then finish up my food and my
I'm going to a doctors appointment today. I have a small belly bump and it's not that noticeable.

I then put on a sweater
And my flip flops and walk out to my car with my wallet, keys, and phone. Of course paparazzi take a picture of me and the belly bump and all that stuff.

I drive to the office and wait in the waiting area. More pictures get snapped and people ask to take pictures with me.

My name gets called ad I stand up waving hello to the nurse. She walks me to the room to an unknown man.

"Hello I am Dr.Smith. I am here in absence of your original doctor Mrs.Chì. She was headed to North Carolina for an emergency from a patient. " he looks at his clip board and says,

"Next time you come you will know the gender of your twins but for now were gonna get the weight and checkup on these kids."

I nod my head and we do the testings.

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Once the testings our done I leave and I go in my car. I go Starbucks and get a passion iced tea. Ugh it's so amazing!

I then get a call from Jason sayin;

Jason: "Hey is it possible if you can visit?"

Me: "sure I miss you already even though you've only been gone for a few days!"

Jason,"I feel you!"

Me: "ok I'll make a trip and I'll be there next week! And stay for a week! See you next week on Sunday!"

Jason; "Bye!"

Me: "Bye!"

I end the call and I continue my drive to the apartment. I see that Maddie's home finally. I drink some more iced tea and head to my bedroom. I watch Disney films cause I'm still a child at heart!

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A few hours later I turn off my laptop extremely tired and I put it on the opposite side of the bed. My phone on my bedside table and I fall asleep.

Justin's POV
I can't control my anger any more. I miss her. She's my purpose I was completely truthful. She's the one I want.

I then sing
You ain't gotta make your mind up (2x) right now(2x),
No rush no pressure,
You ain't gotta make your mind up(2x) right now(2x),
Put my key in the ignition,
••••
Don't do it baby,
Don't do it to me,
•••• >Rap Part<
You ain't gotta make your mind up(2x)
Right now
no rush no pressure
You ain't gotta make your mind up(2x)
Right now(2x)

I feel much better! I sing my old song Swap It Out from 2014:

I then let out a sigh and lay down. I decide to text Hailey. I told her how. I felt and why I did what I did. I do regret that moment. I've regretted for these past 2 weeks.

I've been so heart broken. I haven't lost my purpose I have Hailey remember. God do I miss her. Fuck it! Fuck Jason!  Fuck paparazzi!
Fuck my life!

No I mean my life is fucked up at the moment. I'm a hard Christian god has a plan for everything. He's holding me like a baby he's got my back.

I regret all the bad shit I did that caused me to go to jail. I want to turn off a good leaf. I just wish my life was just more simple rite now.

So chapter is done. The movie Jason ad Hailey watches was the Titanic. And yea. I had writers block and I was confused. This chapter is dedicated to my dead little sister. I recently found out that she died when I was just one so this is dedicated to her! I also want to finish tho book before the November or December of 2016!

So the baby will be born a few months early! Also Tete May or may not be ashore Chrissy's story coming out in December!