Freak ~A Johnlock story~

Smile so sweet

A/N i suggest that you listen to piano music while reading it makes it more emotional. I mean don't listen if your emotional enough as it is. Also I am not writing in John's style it's more of what comes to my mind so sorry if you're expecting John style.

My love

He knew me just by looking at my phone. My life story. He knew exactly how to work me, to make me love his every move or hate him. At least I thought he did. Turns out he was only being his true self around me after our first case together, after I was the first to praise his work, his mind.

He was absolutely marvelous and utterly captivating. A rose in a field of daisies. Except everyone just saw him as thorns, but he was always a rose. A magnificent, and marvelous rose. Full of love, untapped, unlimited love. Ready to give, to serve. Always wanting to help the world and its people even when they didn't want it.

He always called himself a high-functioning sociopath but in this case, and this case only he was utterly and completely wrong. So wrong that he couldn't see it. Those eyes of his were blind to the fact that he was just as human as the rest of us when it came to love.

'Observe' he would say. That I wasn't observing just seeing. He observed but he still never managed to see it. See how he just might be like the rest of us.

I always thought that I had to wait for him, for him to love me, to breathe me like I did him. To want his arms wrapped tightly around my waist. Turns out that was all he ever thought about. All that ever crossed his mind. He always  seemed to be cut off from others, but never to me. I remember when I first saw him, standing there all tall, dark, and handsome. Cliché I know,but he did. He took my breath away in a marvelous way and I already began stuttering.

I didn't know I was in love with him in that moment. Now I can't remember one moment in my life in which I didn't love him. I see him in all my memories. Of course not in the literal sense but I can feel him. Feel myself getting closer to the most important thing in the world to me. I was expecting an extravagant woman, with short blond hair and beautiful eyes. A smart woman, who would take my breath away and she would be, exciting. When I saw him, I knew I had been wrong. I wasn't living to find that woman I was going to him. Always him.

We'd been through a huge amount together you and I.