I wish I was dead. It would be a hell of a lot less painful than this; for i am already dead inside. everyone loves to break me. my best friend my friends even my crush. have you ever wondered why they call it a crush? ill tell you why. you like them and when yiu find out they dont like you back you are absolutly crushed. like someone had dropped a boulder on you. its pure hell. welll fuck life i wish i was dead and i plan on being dead soon enough. As thease thoughts race through my mind i take a razor to my skin. i slice my skin. the blood pores out of it. i feel alive. i do it agian and again and agian. i do it until i run out of room to cut myself anymore. i clean up my wrists and start on my theighs. by the time i go to bed i have 42 new cuts. im such a fucking disaster! I wake the next morning my cuts hurt so bad i love them they complete me. i slide out of bed. today is they day i die. i put my favorite black dress on and my grey converse with multipul purple toungs. i slide a sweater on and hide my freash scars. i love them. as i head to school i smile. my mom said to me this is the first time ive seen you smile in a while is there a boy. i reasurred her im as single as can be.
''Vicoria i know you self harm" she says to me i stop smiling and look at my feet she stops the truck and i get out even though im not at school she yells at me she is going to work. i begin to cry. i see a bridge into and ice cold river. time to die i think to myself. i prop myslef on the rail and step on the outer side of the rail. i take a deep breath in and steady myself i close my eyes the street is empty. i am one hundred percent alone. i take a final breath in just as i am about to jump a firm hard grasps my arm i open my eyes and glare at who ever it is ive never seen him before hes the new student he came today.
"you dont want to do this i mean come on there has to be something worth living for" he says softly while tightening his grip on my arm. my eyes fill with tears and i look at him my green eyes peirce his.
''hey how about you come on this side of the railing" he says with a handsome smirk on his face. i nod not saying anything to him. he gets in front of me and graps my petite waiste and lifts me to the safe side of the railing.
"thanks" i say to him "for ya know saving my life i made you late to school i just go now im sorry" for some reason he chased after my and grabbed my arm
"hey dont go lets walk together were going to the same place lemme get to know ya since ya know were now best friends" i glare at him may i accually have a friend someone who wants to be friends with this peice of shit what the hell is going on? "by the way did it hurt when you fell from heaven?" i laugh at that
" no but i scrapped my knees a little when i crawled up from hell" he smiles at me "im cole and you are? "
i smile" im victoria winters
