So Close But So Far Away [a luke hemmings & ashton irwin fanfic~ 5sos]

Okayyyyy... Hahahahha kk hiiii((: so this is the first time I'm doing this so yeah hope you guys enjoy(: I'm sorry if it's really shitty. Hahah. I'll try to update it hmmm.. on maybe every 3 days(: I would really appreciate if you guys could actually vote for it and leave comments(: thanks!

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sya

Today is the day. I've finally decided to express my feelings to Luke Hemmings and tell him that I'm in love with him.

Sometimes, I think that maybe if he knew, he would admit he feels the same way but over times, I think that he would laugh in my face so hard I would never get over it. But...

It could be really easy. I just gotta go up to him, tell him and see what happens then I would finally know how he feels about me.

But... that would be easier if he even knew that I existed. With all the girls who kept coming up to him to declare their love and him always having a busy schedule for band practice, it's hard to stand out from the crowd.

The hope that Luke could like me back has kept me going for almost a year and a half. The idea of being with him is almost more exciting than being with him for real but of course I really want to turn this fantasy into reality.

But the thing is, he's never noticed me. Only a weirdo like me would notice him. So telling him that we belong together is the probably the weirdest and craziest thing to do.

I guess I'm weird and crazy. But who cares, I'm still gonna do it and nothing's gonna stop me.

"You know what? I really think that you shouldn't do that. I mean, come on Candice!" Brooke said.

Telling Luke was never some big plan. I mean, yes, I thought about it every day and imagined how amazing and wonderful it would be to let someone in. To trust him completely. But I never thought that I'd actually tell him. So yeah, it stayed a fantasy...

"why can't I, Brooke?" I said, looking down at my shoes.

"Just... Just think about it carefully. Okay, what do you think he'd say if you told him?"

I hate to admit it, but Brooke is right. She'd been hearing me obsess over Luke for a year and a half.

"Brooke, well, I guess that you are just assuming that he doesn't like me because he's never talked to me. But then again, we may never know."

"So are you really going to do it Candice? Don't you care that maybe he-"

"No. I don't care if he tells everyone in school. It's better to let it out than keeping it inside you forever."

"But Candice..."

"No! I just know."

Well I can't really explain the "I just know".There are just certain things that I know, well it's kinda hard to explain. It's kinda like when something REALLY amazing is about to change my life. It's only happened to me a few times but when it happens, it's undeniable. But the "I just know" is always right.

You'd think Brooke would be less skeptical about "I just know" by now. We've been friends for almost 8 years now. She's been there. Hmmm.. Well, she wasn't there for ALL the hardest parts, but those things just happened before we were even friends.

Anyways, that's how I know Luke and I are supposed to be together.The thought of this makes me swoon.

From where I'm standing, I could see Luke, over with some boys from the music club. His blond hair was amazingly amazing, shinning under the beautiful sun rays.

Well, here goes nothing...