Battle Scars

Us

Class was so fast. It was a lot of fun! Before my eyes school was over for the summer. Jonas will be graduating. Yea I know he's 22 and I'm 19 I know. Don't judge me. Anyway we where walking back to the car.
"May I please drive. I have something to pick up." I ask
"Yea anything for you" he says
I sigh
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I was driving for 30 minutes and Jonas was getting annoyed
"Where are we going" he mumbles
"It's a surprise" I say
We get there. it happens it is my exes house. Johns sister had been watching him.
"I'll be a second okay?"I tell Jonas
"No I'm coming in" he says
I sigh
And nod. We get to the front door and I knock. Johns sister Natalie answers.
"Hi there! What can I do for you?" She asks
"I'm here for my son" I say
Jonas looks at me quickly and puts his hand in his face.
"Darlin I don't have your son. This here is my brother johns boy." She says
"John raped me. I'm the mom" I say
"He what?!" She responds scared
"Yea anyway he's dead. I need my son" I say
"I know he's dead I heard it on the news but I didn't know you where the one darlin! I'm so sorry sweat heart." She says
"I just want Titus." I say
"Alright I'll get his stuff together" she says closing the door I sit on her stairs on the porch. Jonas sits next to me
"I'm not ready for this" he says
"Yea you are. You are strong and a hard worker. And don't say you can't do this. You weren't raped" I snap at him
He looks hurt
"I'm sorry" I say grabbing his hand.
"It's okay sunshine. But Athena." He asks
"Yea?" I say
"Do you think. Well maybe, that you and I, will once have our own child" he asks
I laugh
"What?!" I say
"Never mind" he answers
I put my arm around him
"Of corse I do Jonas." I say
He smiles.
   "Alright lovers I have Titus ready. I had his stuff packed, I knew he was leaving me cos
{Just saying Natalie has terrible grammar and can't speak well so if you see mistakes they are Natalie's speaking mistakes}
The government called. And told me. Please take care of him." She says tearing up.
"Listen I'll make a deal with you when ever we need babysitting you can watch him. You can also take him Monday's Thursday's and Sunday's." I say
She smiles
"Alright dear! Take good care of him.
TITUS get over here" she yells
I flinch
And my little Titus walks to me. He looks just like me. No John in him. At all. I tear up and run to Titus picking him up hugging him.
"Now child, this is yo mum. Y'all gonna respect her now boy." Natalie says
He nods
He lays his head on my shoulder
"Thank you Natalie" I say walking to the car. Jonas carries Tituses bag.
Titus probably doesn't understand at all what's going on. But he knows I'm his mom.
I put him on my lap. Jonas is driving this time. He doesn't have a car seat yet. So. Anyway
We where driving when Titus starts talking in his cute little voice.
"Mummy. That's not dad! Where's dad! Mummy! I want daddy!" He starts crying
I sigh
"Your dad did something bad to me. He is in a bad place where bad people go" it's hard to describe hell to a child without scaring them.
"Daddy said he want to hurt you n that I will be like him and hurt women" he says
"I dunno what dat means mummy." He says
"Listen Titus. You treat woman kindly. If you hurt women you will be sent to a bad place like your dad did." Jonas says
I grab his hand. He pulls away.
"Jonas" I whisper
"Just I need to think Athena"
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We pull up to his house.
He doesn't want this.
I don't know if I want it either.