Pull the trigger no ones gonna do it for you... Maybe you should pull the fucking trigger.... Didn't let them go tonight too bad... Too sucked into The Walking Dead and over thinking... Its only 3:35 in the morning I guess I still have time... Crying over a fictional characters death and real peoples now that I think about it... My grandpa never happy or showed barely any emotion... And then I came around and he was the happiest man in the world too my parents and grandma and then he died and I barely got to know him.... I really wish I could've known him maybe I wouldn't have been through all of this is he was still here... I truly don't know... I can't take anymore time thinking... I'm on the edge of a breakdown no one to talk to nothing to do to stop it... Nothing... Everyone is asleep... It pretty much sucks. Something just happened again with my bf he's being a total ignorant asshole it sucks... I love him too much to break up with him we would both end up killing ourselves if the other one hurt one... At least I would.... He said he'd never hurt me or anything but he just practicly raped me over text last night.... I'm not sure what to do he just knows that he has to make up for it... But I don't feel he is going too he's trying I guess... He showed his friend all of it too and he's like oh haha this is so cool.... One of my other friends found out from someone else and started freaking out and pulled the shit on me where he went "oh I'm so hurt that I didn't hear it from you" like seriously he is always on top of my business I very well know he loves me a lot... But he won't back the fuck off I told him that... I feel a little bad but I don't BC he needed to know that he's too clingy normally I'm the one getting told off so I was really surprised... He won't answer me either... Its really time to go to sleep I can't fight anymore I'll just either think or cry myself to sleep either one will at least make me pass out for the sake of my own health... The thoughts need to stop.
