If only there were words to explain,
How I feel, how it hurts, how to cover the pain.
How I act, how I fake it all,
How I feel like, when i'm about to fall.
Falling asleep at night, almost crying,
Trying not to, 'cause you know you won't be stopping.
Not feeling connected anymore, 'cause you feel like Dying.
Telling yourself to 'just keep trying' .
Shoving the pain down throat, won't stop it,
Instead you try to be as tough as a nail,
But life gives you shit and you cant bail.
Not wanting the pain, but you've got no choice,
Instead you cry, without all the noise.
Having to deal with it is even worse,
Trying to get help, but you get none, like you're in some curse.
When you think you've got it sorted,
Then you get another snide comment,
Realize that your broken,
Picking up the pieces and hurting.
You've never wanted anything more or less,
But then again you get a mess.
Telling yourself that it's alright will help you less,
You need to face it, and deal with the mess.
