Is this really what we wanted (komahina )

chapter four

I watched the white haird boy sound asleep next to me while I  stroked his hair . Me and nagito found a a house that wasn't too bad it's wasn't broken either it was just a little dusty with a few cracks in the window but it was fine just to stay for a while until everything goes to plan.

I looked over at a bag that has my clothes in there with komaeda's dna of course. But I couldn't help but feel guilty I know I'm lying to nagito saying that I'm "hajime hinata " when I'm still izuru kamukura I still have him inside of me but I have to do this it's all for the sake of junko.......it's all for her.

I looked over at the sleeping male feeling my face burn up as my eyes tearing up while letting some tears escape my eyes  " I'm sorry nagito."

-X-

"H-hajime?" I called out "hajime?" I shot up from the bed to see darkness and no sign of hinata. I got off the bed and opend the door " HINATA-KUN ARE YOU THERE!?" My voice echoed through the hallway but no sign of hinata. I walked down the empty hallway . I walked into the kitchen seeing a paper on the counter. "Hm what's this?"

"Dear nagito but im sorry to say this but I had to leave I've been Lying to you this whole time at first I thought I would go along saying that" I loved " when I really didn't to be honest I think I fell for you but I just don't  want to hurt you anymore I'm sorry and goodbye for now

From, hajime hinata" I felt hot tears falling down from my cheeks as I placed the note on the table. I fell down onto my knees placing my hands on my head while I laughed loudly "A AHAHAHAHA I ALWAYS KNEW I WAS A SCUM AND WORTHLESS." I screamed I looked up with a blank expression on my face "Well I guess I leave this place tsk."

The albino found a bag and started placing some food and wepons like a gun and a knife. He looked back at the door and walked away from the house leaving a note on the door......................

" if you need me it's to late I'm sorry hinata-kun

From ,the worthless scum komaeda."

-X-
(Three years later  (the future) }

I walked down the busy street passing by ever store. I looked up at the sky while snowflakes fell on my face and melted away. I always loved the winter it was the best time of the year. The streets would be covered in Christmas lights, in my neighborhood there would always be a competition to see who would win the best Christmas decorations and I  would always  win because of my luck, and the best part was the snow i love snow it's so beautiful I love it so much.

But nothing would fix my broken heart I would try to go on dates but none of them would work out ...I was once was in a abuse relationship with this one guy but I ended thing and I never heard of him again .

Because of that I gotten very depressed I even tried killing myself but my roommate neagi found me trying to hang myself so I went to the best thing could ...I would self harm it wasn't the best decision I could've gotten help like neagi suggested but I didn't want help I just wanted to be alone and away from people.

I just don't understand why neagi is so kind to me I don't want him to dirty himself being around filth like me. I just want it all end, I want hinata back.

-X-
" neagi I'm home." I closed the door behind me and walked into the hallway.  I could hear neagi talking to someone in the living room.  "Hey neagi I'm going to do my school wor-." I was shocked I looked over at who neagi was talking to and it was hinata ... I couldn't believe it i want to run over to him and give him a big hug and tell him how much I missed him but I couldn't.