It was a busy night at the office..im so tired of this nightly routine but i have to do this or else..i'll starve to death..
I met her from a friend..actually my former batchmate at the office..i told myself that her face was already familliar..I've been observing her for a long time..we often ride the same transpo going to the office but she's kinda shy..and so we met and the story goes..we became friends but as early as that i already told her not to fall in love with me.but she did and i did...now we're floating in a limbo..
My not-supposed-to-be-bestfriend...she's always there to listen to whatever i say..She never left,but I did..She has a girlfriend, but most of the time,she told me that she doesn't love the girl the way she did before..I asked her why...???...my bestfriend and i had lots of happy moments together..we had gone through many places..Tasted every food that we craved to eat..do chores together..I miss her whenever were not together..but i told myself that it shouldn't be that way..i just then realized that i'm falling in love with my bestfriend..no.no.no..but i love how it feels..knowing she's there with you all the time but the truth is,she belongs to somebody else and i can't love her..it isn't right...
Then there she came...wiping all my tears away..giving me a warm hug and letting me feel that i'm secured and will never be broken again..she held my hand so tight and looked through my eyes...as if looking through my soul telling me that..she's there...why didn't I notice her all along...she always makes me smile..she made me feel that i am the most important person in the world,worth fighting and waiting for,deserved to be loved..she did made me feel special..treats me like a princess...her own princess..and shes my superhero..my strength whenever i'm in my weakest..sometimes its hard for me to see her go..i want her to be by my side at all times..to protect me from being hurt...but i know somebody else is also in pain whenever i'm with her,and i don't want that girl to suffer,but i cant help it..i want to be with my hero..i need her so badly, that i cant bear to see myself alone..again..we are each others happiness..i want to make her happy after all the heartaches that she's been through..we have a lot of things in common and i like her because she appreciates me..accepted me despite of my weaknesses..i like her as my buddy..i want her to be my bestfriend..i need her to be my hero..and now im starting to love her...
...LOVE LOVE LOVE..please don't play with my heart..i don't want to see myself crying in the corner for the second time..i don't want to be torn again..if this is how to get through the pain then please don't let me fall again..i love them...yes i really do..i don't want them to be hurt...not because of me..if i can lie to myself and tell my heart not to beat, i wouldn't fall in love to anyone..but i guess i'm too weak to hide the feelings...i love how they love me..and i don't want them to leave me..but i wonder how will i manage to keep this feelings that we all have for each other? i guess for now,we'll enjoy each other and make the most out of it while we're still together..LIVE LAUGH LOVE..
