Daughter's POV
Bullshit! Nakakainis! Nakakainis naman kasi 'tong matanda na 'to e! Ayaw pa akong payagan na magpractice! Ako pa man din ang leader doon! Ano nalang ang sasabihin saakin ng mga kagrupo ko! Ako nanaman ang walang kwentang leader! ARGH! Nakakabwisit na talaga siya!
Sana andito nalang si mama! Argh! Nakakainis!
"Bumaba ka na dyan at kakain na! Kapag hindi ka bumaba, wala kang allowance for one month!"
"Who cares! Hindi nalang ako mag-aaral! Hiang hiya na ako sa mga kaklase ko! Lagi nalang ganito!"
I replied. Totoo. Nahihiya na ako sakanila. Ako yung naturingang leader tapos ako pa yung wala dun sa practice?! Kanina pa sila andun! Argh!
"Fine! Suit yourself!"
Mom is gone. Wala na siya. Kinuha na siya ni God. I may be selfish, but I want my mom back. Pinapayagan niya ako kahit saan ako magpunta! Kahit ano gawin ko! Argh!
Kung hindi dahil kay dad, hindi sana mamamatay si mom! How dare he comeback here after what he has done! Inatupag niya pa muna yang trabaho niya! Kaasar!
I just slept and not think about anything at that moment.
Pagkagising ko kinabukasan, may natapakan ako sa doorstep ko. What the hell?!
"Ano nanaman 'tong ginawa mo?!"
"I left that last night dahil hindi ka bumaba. Hindi mo rin pala kinain."
"Natapakan ko pa tuloy! Argh! I hate you!"
Dinabog ko yung pinto at pumasok ng CR. I cried and cried alot. I miss mom. I want her back.
Nilinis ko yung natapakan ko at naligo narin.
Nagugutom na ako kaya I decided na lumabas ulit. Tinignan ko muna kung may iniwan siyang pagkain sa doorstep dahil ayoko ng matapakan pa yun ulit. At may iniwan nga siya.
May natitira pa akong pera sa wallet ko kaya sa labas ako kakain.
"Saan ka pupunta?"
"I'm going to hell." Sabi ko at padabog na sinara ang pinto.
Dumiretso ako sa Mcdo at doon kumain. I remember mom. Kapag nagugutom ako, she'll come with me. And even treat me. Why can't dad just do that?!
I felt my right pocket vibrated. It was my phone. An unkown number flashed on my screen.
I answered not knowing who was it.
"Yes hello?"
"Are you Ms.______"
"Yes it's me, what can I do for you?"
"Your father is here in the ER of FEU Hospital, he keeps saying your name."
I dropped the spoon I was holding.
"WHAT?! WHAT HAPPENED?!"
"He got hit by a truck---"
"Hey. Hey. Princess."
"Dad..."
"Sssh. Don't cry my princess. I love you. Always remember that I love you and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
"I should be the one who's sorry dad. I'm sorry."
"Sssh. I'll go with mom first okay? I love you."
"Dad. Dad. Don't. Please."
Sabi ko habang umiiyak.
Pumara ako ng taxi at dumiretso sa hospital.
"Mr.______"
Dinala ako ng isang nurse sa morgue...he's gone...he's gone and I'm alone now.
I should've not blamed him. I should've respected him. Damn it.
Why was I so narrow minded?!
Dad. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
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I'm sorry for the randomness and the drama. Dayum. Huhuhuhu. Naiiyak tuloy ako.😢😢😢
