Find My Way Back To You

Welcome To My Life

Claudia Matthews.

I once was a household name.

Everyone stood to talk to me, I was the most pretty, most popular girl at school. I was head the cheerleader, I was dating the head of the basketball team. I had more than enough friends. People would even part like the red sea, when I walked down the corridor.

I was the girl who had everything.

Now, I'm invisible.

I had nothing.

And all because, I got sick. I had a brain tumour, I never told anyone.

Not even Alec, whom at the time I was madly in love with. I was half tempted to but air-quotes around in love with. But I can't deny still to this day. I did love him, even though our relationship was seemed as superficial. And I'm almost positive Alec cheated on me a handful of times. I did genuinely care about him, more than anyone I ever have.

But just like everyone else he dropped me.

I feel as if I need to explain, So yes I was sick. Luckily the brain tumour wasn't cancerous, so I wasn't in any real danger now. I mean there's a chance I could get another but it's very unlikely.

So due to the fact, I was sick, I missed a half a years worth of school, and when I came back due to the tumour, my personality would alter, I would forget certain things due to the compression on my brain. Often when after this happened, I'd have a seizure, which I still have to this day. But people just assumed I went crazy.

And for a while, I was the school's nut-job, but now I'm the school's nothing.

And the worst thing is, I don't know which one I prefer being.

I mean when I was being teased, It was obviously sickening, because I was actually, physically sick. But I wasn't going to tell anyone, I'd rather be teased for something that wasn't true, rather than something that was.

But at least when I was being teased people actually spoke to me.

Don't get me wrong, I do have one friend, kind of.

She's called Lydia and she's new, she literally moved to our school last week. And I'm desperately trying to seal our friendship before she realizes we have a cafeteria. Because in this past week, I had actually grown fond of Lydia. But in the back of the mind guilt crept onto of me because I knew, if I hadn't of gotten sick, there's no way in hell I would have been seen with someone like her.

But things where different now.

I was different now.

Today was my second week of senior year. And my heart couldn't help but sink, this was supposed to be my year. I had so many things planned, like I was meant to throw the back-to-school sesh, that everyone would still talk about come July. In winter, I was supposed to be going too Hawaii with Alec, for a week. Just me, him and the beach.

But in reality, now all I have too look forward to is leaving. So I can start a fresh, at college.

My outfit choice for today, was just casual. There was no point dressing up, if no-one was even going to acknowledge my presence. So I settled for black ripped skinny jeans and I matched this with a bohoo styled, off-the shoulder blouse. And I paired this with a pair of tanned sandals. My curly hair was lying on my shoulder, as usual. And I kept to my every-day make-up which consisted of foundation, eyebrow gel, bronzer, blush, highlighter, mascara and winged eyeliner.

I take in my appearance once more, before shrugging at myself with settling on the fact, I didn't look homeless, so I couldn't real complain.

"Hello Miss.Claudia!" My housekeeper, Dakota chirps as I walk downstairs.