Authors Note; Grayson and Ethan are still sixteen in this and if you're not already sixteen, you are now ;)
I don't want him Gray, I want you. Not you and Ethan, just you. It was a one time deal between me and him, you're different. I messed up, I know. I don't deserve you but I crave you and that's why I wrote this. I know you told me to stay out of your life and never talk to you again but I can't. I can't. I tried so hard because I know it's what you want and I want you to be happy but I'm sorry Grayson. I just can't. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can barely even breathe. Ethan doesn't make me feel the way you do. You've given me everything I've ever wanted and more. You've cared for me. You've loved me. You've basically bent over backwards for me and I repay you by sleeping with your brother. I'm so stupid, I don't even know what I was thinking. I wasn't thinking. You have every right to hate me but please. please don't. I couldn't live knowing you did. I guess it probably doesn't make things better that I couldn't even say this to your face. If I told you all of this in person I would end up breaking down and I think you've seen that enough. You probably crumbled this up by now but if you're still reading this, I'm sorry and I love you. I love you so much Grayson Bailey Dolan. I always have and I always will.
Love, Sunni
I slammed my fist on the counter. She thinks this is what I want. She thinks it makes me happy that I haven't seen her in two weeks. Does it make me mad that she slept with my twin brother? Hell yeah it does. Does it make me mad enough to want her out of my life? Not even close. I know I shouldn't go back to her so easily but she's like a drug and I'm so so addicted. I told every girl that I dated that I loved them, but I only meant it with one. I love Sunni and I can't just let her slip through my finger tips because she made one mistake. It was a pretty bad mistake but shit, I make at least five mistakes everyday and she still forgives me. I need her in my life. She's my rock, my baby girl, the love of my fucking life. I grabbed my car keys. I have to make this right. It was raining but I didn't care. I didn't even call before I came. I drove straight to her house and parked on the side of the road when I got there. I ran to her porch and knocked desperately hard. It was 8:15 pm, she had to still be awake. The door opened after about a minute of waiting. The girl who opened the door looked different though. She didn't look like herself. She wore sweatpants with a black crop top and had her hair in a very messy bun. She didn't have makeup on and her eyes were red and puffy. Tears were streaming down her pink cheeks. It hurt to see Sunni so torn up. I didn't even know what to say. I tried to talk but no words came out. I felt her warm body wrap around my torso and her head against my chest. Her silent sobs filled my ears. I wiped away her falling tears but they just kept coming back. I picked her up and brought her inside. I closed the door with my foot and walked upstairs to her room and set her down on her bed. I was first to talk.
"I love you. No matter what I will always love you. Am I mad that you slept with my brother? Of course I am. But you made a mistake and now it's time for me to forgive you for making that mistake."
I kissed her head and wiped the few fallen tears left. She didn't say much but her words were powerful and I truly believed them.
"I love you Grayson."
Sunni was never the type to tell you she loved you unless she meant it. We had been dating for six months and she still hadn't said it. She doesn't just throw that word around.
"I love you more Sunni."
Her name is almost as beautiful as her.
For the rest of the day we just talked and tried to catch up. She told me about her sister and how she had her baby last night and we agreed to go visit her tomorrow. She was so excited to be an aunt, it was adorable. Gosh I love her.
Authors Note; I hope you enjoyed the first chapter! I tried really hard to make it long and somewhat good so let me know what you think! I pre wrote some of this book so I'll have the next chapter up very soon :)
