Falling in love with my best friend 「Yaoi」

The Confession

"God, why did I let this happen?"- I said throwing the pillow to the wall, looking at my phone with that long ass message saying how I really felt about Kazuto.

We've been friends for so long, is it really okay for me to actually confess my feelings for him? I mean, we're both men... and love isn't always happy.

If I risk it all and lose, what's the point of it all?

I took my phone and proof-read the message for the 5th time already.

"Kaz, my feelings towards you have changed. This isn't a friendly emotion anymore... I fell for you. At the worst circumstances, I let my heart choose you. My brain may think this is incorrect, but my heart feels like this is correct. I apologize for all of this, for letting my emotions get in the way. I hope you don't hate me for this, but if you really get mad at me... It's okay for you to leave me. Have a nice night... I'll see you tomorrow"

I'm so good at explaining myself, damn.

As I kept watching the message my phone slipped from my hand and it smashed on my face. "FUCK" I whispered as I stroked my nose picking up my phone from my chest.

Your Message Has Been Sent.

"SHIT NO NO NO NO. I DIDN'T MEAN TO SEND IT, FUCK NO." I tried to unsend it but there's one problem... THIS ISN'T INSTAGRAM. OH NO OH HELL N-

Higarashi Kazuto Has Sent You A Message.

"fuck this." -I said as I pressed the notification.

"Takeshi, don't worry about such a thing... We're friends after all, I'll never leave your side. See you tomorrow, take care. xoxo"

was that it... all my worrying for nothing? wait- DID I JUST GOT REJECTED.

WHAT THE FUCK, THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL.

I feel deeply hurt but somehow his words didn't really hurt me. in fact, he didn't really want to give me an answer. Maybe it's just me but my mind will probably kill me instead of his words or actions.

And those were Takeshi's last thoughts before falling asleep. His worries were reasonable, Kazuto is his best friend, they've been together for almost 5 years. Their friendship is very important for Takeshi, so he feels like he just ruined it, even if Kazuto told him it was okay... his anxiety is still going to make him feel guilty.

"Takeshi wake up..." -I felt a sweet voice surrounding my ear.

"You're gonna be late for school" -Late for school, I said as I smiled with such delightness because of my mother's voice.

LATE FOR SCHOOL!? I woke up as fast as I could and got ready for school. It took me 10 minutes to get ready. '7:45am' '5%' You've got to be kidding me. Late and no battery.

What an amazing start to my day.

Someone please save me from this misery.

I took my bag and put on my shoes before getting out of the house and kissed my mother's cheek a goodbye. As I rushed to go to school, I remembered I left my wallet on my bed. "CAN THIS DAY GET ANY WORST?!" and that's when I called the devil upon me... THE BUS HAD ALREADY LEFT THE STATION.

"no no no no no, why today?" I said as my voice started cracking. The woman beside me looked at me as if I was a weirdo and walked away. I walked as fast as I could with the hopes of getting there in time.

'8:08am' what am I gonna say now? This day is seriously shit. I opened the classroom's door and caught everyone's attention.

I know I'm hot but please kiddos, chill out.

"Irie Takeshi, why are you so late?" My homeroom teacher asked, I could feel the heat coming out of his pores.

"Sorry sir, I couldn't get to the bus in time" -I said bowing to my teacher with my face looking down at the floor.

"Go sit down before I send you to the principal's office."

Five hours have passed and it was finally time for lunch, best thing school's can give students... But of course my dumb ass had to forget his wallet now he gotta eat with his damn eyes until school ends.

"Take!" - Kazuto said as he jumped on Takeshi's back.

"Kiddo, how's your day going? It better not suck."

"It's actually going great! How about yours?"

Oh boy. "It sucks. first, I woke up late for school and forgot to pack my wallet, then I forgot to charge my phone, after that I walked to the station and the bus left me AND I CAME LATE FOR SCHOOL" -I said as tears started to fall down my cheek. "bro, why must life be like this?"

bro.

Are you being for real?

Putting my own self in the bro-zone, I must love doing this to myself ha ha.

"Shut up, I'll buy you food."-Kazuto said as he grabbed my arm and started walking to the cafeteria.

"no, you don't have to, It's okay."

"BITCH I KNOW YOU CRYING BECAUSE YOU HUNGRY. YOU ALWAYS HUNGRY NOW ACCEPT THE FOOD IM GONNA GIVE YOU AND BE A HAPPY BEAN FOR THE DAY"

He's always worrying about me, but today feels so different... Maybe it's because I confessed and my brain is playing games but I'm sure this vibe is not like always.

This is not like him.