Falling in love with my best friend 「Yaoi」

Takeshi's reality

Kazuto's pov.

My way back home yesterday was rather thoughtful. My mind was showing me all these stuff I didn't want to think about and yet, those things were the only ones I could put my focus on. Takeshi and his confession... I know how shy he is, that's why he told me over message. We've been friends for so long and I've never done something to hurt him. But now, thanks to my selfishness, Takeshi will be hurt. His heart will beat sadness and that breaks me. Best friends are not on this world to hurt each other's feelings, so why am I here, doing this to him?

"Babe, are you okay?" –Aki said pushing my shoulder, 'How am I going to be okay?' I thought...

"Yeah, I'm just fine." –I answered, giving her a kiss on the cheek to not make her worry. "I'll go check on Takeshi, wait for me!" I separating away from her and took my phone out to text Takeshi.

"Hey dummy, where are you? I haven't seen you around..."

Message Sent.

"Take?"

Message Sent.

"BITCH YOU'RE SCARYING ME, WHERE ARE YOU?!"

Message Sent.

10 minutes have passed and for Kazuto it felt like months. "Where the hell is this kid" I said as low as I could and kept checking my phone for any messages, from him.

Takeshit Has Sent You A Message.

'HAHAHA. THIS ALWAYS GETS ME I LOVE HIS NAME ON MY PHONE.' I thought while opening the message as fast as possible.

"yo chill I was eating, I'm at the benches. I'll wait for you here."

So he's alright, thank God. I started heading to the benches that were at the back of the school. They're so peaceful and sometimes we just go there to enjoy the view. That's one of the things I love doing with Takeshi.

Takeshi's pov.

I love it here, it always cheers me up whenever I'm sad. The wind hitting my body and the trees just surrounding the area with it's sound just makes it the perfect location to relax. After months, me and Kazuto will be meeting here again. We used to come here to read and do our homework together, but now since we have different homerooms, we don't hangout as much anymore.

"Hey" I heard a familiar voice and body sitting next to me. I turn around and it was him, Kazuto. "I have something important to tell you Take and I hope you understand..." What's with this vibe, the trees don't feel as pleasing anymore... "continue..." I said, looking at him now with a serious expression, is he okay? "Aki and I... are dating."

Dating.

D a t i n g.

My heart just shrunk, I feel like someone just stabbed me a million times. How did this happen? I don't like this, I can't like it.

"I really like her and she really makes me happy, I hope you understand where I'm trying to go." He later on continued and I could feel my cheeks getting wet. It was my tears, they were surrounding my face. Covered by sadness I couldn't hide. This isn't what I wanted, What I was expecting... Why is reality so difficult. "I'm not the one you love..." why? why goddammit! "Takeshi, I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry" He said with struggle and pulling me to a hug. He was hugging me so tight I felt like my heart was glued all over again. Is this how it feels to be heart broken by the person you love? His tears were dripping on my shoulders and I just couldn't feel more sadder. "Hey, It's okay Kazu... we're best friends right? there's no need for you to cry. If you want to be happy with her, I'll support your decision. If you're happy, I'm happy. Remember that alright?" I whispered in his ear softly trying to calm him down. This is the only thing I can do, watch him be happy with someone else. Until I get over it. Over him, who knows...

After that, we separated from the hug and wiped eachothers tears. "We look so dumb." I said while laughing. Don't hide anything from me stupid, and don't feel pity for me. I'll be just fine. Go be happy with her. I'll be here to listen to your rants when she fucks up, or when you do. You're not alone. I know I can count on you too." My heart felt like sinking little by little. For the first time in my life I felt envious about someone...

I stood up and pulled him out of the bench to his homeroom. When we got there I pushed him to her and said, "AKI, HERE'S YOUR BOYFRIEND. TAKE CARE OF HIM, BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO FIX HIS BROKEN HEART IF SOMETHING HAPPENS, I'LL BREAK YOUR FACE." I said screaming and covering my face. I joined their arms and wished them good luck. Without looking at them I walked back to my classroom, and sat on my usual seat. But this time I was looking at my desk, feeling emotionless, numb. 'They're probably kissing right now' I thought. I just wanted recess to be over.

I just want to clear my mind.