Have you ever starved yourself just to see how much your body could handle? Have you ever used your perfect skin as paper? Have you ever taken those little colorful pills to make it easier? Have you ever drank out of those cold mountains to make it go away?
Well i can tell you i have done it all.... im not proud of it, but i cant take it back and it has made me who i am today..
When i was 9 years old i lost my best friend in a snowmobile accident... he was my world and i still remember it to this day, the day i lost him, just like it was yesterday. Its been 7 years since then.. lets just say i hate my birthday.. he was born 1/26/1990 and died 1/24/2009 and his funeral was 1/28/2009 also my birthday... I was 9 i handle the pain badly but i never did those things.. i just cried a lot and slept a lot.. i didn't eat as much but i wasn't starving myself.
I was at my bio dads, we were at our grandpas and grandmas getting ready to eat dinner with my brother, step mom and step sister. We were justgetting our plates and my dads phone rang....it was my mom...she said craig was in the hospital in traverity and it was bad. When my dad hung up the phone he set down beside me and hugged me and my brother dylan, he said craig had been in an accident and was in the hospital and it wasnt good.. As we both started to cry we ate the rest of our food balling our eyes out. We then went out to the truck and drove from owosso to travercity.
We entered the hospital i was sick to my stomach, couldnt breath and was balling my eyes out. I met my mom by these white doors which on the other side was my dead cousin, My mom proceeded to tell us that he had hit a tree going extremely fast and flew 160 feet from his slead and broke both legs and his right arm and had serious brain damage and died when he hit the tree head first. We werent allowed to go in and see him cause we were so young and he had so many tubes going into his head.
I just wanted to wake up and it to be a dream but it wasnt. and i had lost him.. and i wasnt sure if i could live with that..
