He is so beautiful, like smoke. He intrigues you and draws you in. He did that to me I fell for him after a long time. Now I'm depressed and tired, but not of him. I loved him, I loved him, I loved him, and I still love him.
Sometime late September 2014 I met a boy named Justin. I was so innocent and I had never had a boyfriend.
"Hi I'm Justin" he said with a smile that could make your heart flutter. His eyes. My favorite part about him, they were an amber-ish brown.
"I'm Bella" I said with a small smile
Again I was so innocent not to mention hella shy. He was so outgoing and there was something about him that had caught my attention.
The day that I met him was my favorite day. I don't know how but we talked so easily like we've know each other for a long time.
"I've never had my first kiss" I admitted while my cheeks turned a crimson color
"That's a lie! Look at you who wouldn't like you"
"Well no one has so..." I said quieter
I could tell by his looks that he wanted to kiss me. I was so nervous now. What if I was bad at kissing?
Seconds turned to to minutes, minutes turned into an hour.
"So you've never kissed anyone before?" This time his eyes were locked on mine and he was giving me a 'dreamy, I want to kiss you' look.
I was so fucking nervous.
"Yes I told you" I laugh and look away

It was starting to get late and I had to leave.
"Justin I really have to go"
"Okay wait" he looks into my eyes again. With that damn look.
"What" I whisper as he keeps staring into my eyes.
Fuck I'm really nervous now.
I panic because he hasn't said anything and I had just met him that same day... Maybe I shouldn't kiss him. Then I turn to walk away and as I'm turning, his hand is on my wrist and he pulls me back to him.
I look into his eyes again and give him a small smile. Then he smiles and suddenly he leans in.
I didn't know what to do my heart pounds and I just kiss him back but pull away quickly.
I'm still in shock.
"Bye Bella" he says with a bigger smile than before. I imagine he was happy that he took my first kiss.
That night, I couldn't sleep. I just felt so nostalgic and my lips felt like they were sparkling up.
I kept thinking 'bell you don't even know this kid and you just let him kiss you!!'
But I didn't care. At that point I knew that I wanted him in my life. I don't believe in love at first sight but that was definitely something.
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The next couple of days we got to know each other we texted mostly. We were young. He asked me to be his girlfriend October 8th 2014.
I fell for him so quickly, so suddenly. I had no idea what would become of him and I. I was just a innocent girl and he was this boy who turned my grey world rainbow. Until he didn't anymore.
