Halal Nikaah~Halal Series Book #2

Chapter Eighteen

Zain

Sometimes Allah makes our life hard,He will test you in every pain and hardships,But finally He will bring you close to him and make your heart in peace,Which something happened with me.

I was in wrong way,Totally and I was someone who never prayed sincerely in my entire life,Hypocrist and complete jerk,I never respected anyone whether it Brother or Sister,I never took love seriously.

Until one day,when I saw her for first time,Even though it was in photo,Something new hitted my heart,Something which I didn't take seriously.

Days passed by,Seeing her photo made me feel guilty,Am I really deserved her?

Her modesty and taqwa in her eyes clearly shown in the photo,Her charachter and Nicest behavious talked in my family everytime,Which made me drown in guilt.

Days passed by seeing her photo,Half love and guilt,What if She prayed for someone nice?What if she desires to spend her life with someone who pray?Who have taqwa and sincerity as she do?

What will she think if she know about me?What will she do when She realise my charachter and habits?

I can't leave her,or desire to be with her,Each time I saw her photo I drowned in guilt,Her Innocent face with lot of experience in Islam made drown deep.

Whenever I try to imagine my life with her,The word Impossible hitted my mind,which made me lost.

Then I decided to do which I didn't do firstly,I decided to try.

I tried to be like her,I leaved all my bad habits and put them all in a room,and locked it,But the key was still in front of me,Forcing ke to open it.

Still,I tried hard,I moved to a better life,I showed my attention in Quran,I did all the things that bring me closer to Allah.

And one day,The key is gone,and Allah gave me a new room,Which contained lot of knowledges and Imaan.

Days passed by,Praying and making dua,And seeing her photo,I felt happy,a happiness which I never had felt.

Now,here i am,as her Husband and love.

When she had fever,Im the most saddest guy in the world,I didn't know what to do but kept try to make her fine.

When She woke up in the middle of night,tears coming out from her eyes,I felt bad and so wanted to console her,But it was nice to have her in my arms,Maybe,Allah fulfilled my Dream with her nightmare.

I didn't want to do anything with her,I don't want make her mine by forcing her,I want her to love me and be mine herself,I don't worry about how much time she take,Allah knows what best for me,
And i know,

Halal love is the best love♡