5 Days.

5th Element

Mirror
I won't ask who is the fairest of them all,
Or for pretty things to don for the ball.
I simply want to know if I'm healed yet.
Is this resentment,
Residual recollections of fading memories,
Or regret?
Is it okay to smile now?
Should I continue to pray on my knees
And hang my head low?
Was that sweat from fighting demons
Or tears
From reaching out in vain

and shouts on deaf ears -

On my pillow?
Mirror I won't ask for happily ever after...
I've come searching for the fifth element
In this chapter.
I want what is real.

Mirror show me the lessons
Behind all of these goodbyes,
Mirror, Show me my third eye.

Soul Search
I dig inside of me to find the cure
for the little girl
With love deferred
And just enough sunshine in her eyes
To light the way.
I find the remnants of stones cast -
Which I no longer look at as broken pieces,
But parts of the sum of the lesson I've been
Chosen to learn this lifetime.
~
Along the way I find a safe space to rest my bones
and the thoughts that won't be quiet.
The parts I'd shut tight loosen like shoelace
On pavement.
How did you get here?
~
"Can I lay by your side?
Next to you?"

6AM
6 AM is for talking about the things that have been burning inside of you.
And I jump awake to listen.
I hear your passion
Lips turned up into a smile
And it is infectious.
At 6 AM the world is at your fingertips.
You let the doubt of dreams kept hidden
dissipate.
You open up for me
Pry your ribcage apart
and share the universe that's lived inside of you.
You've been silenced for too long
You've got a light and a lions roar and you've been silent for too long.
At 6 AM I make the decision not to be seduced by the sound of your voice,
My god..
The sound of your voice.
*deep breath*
I make the decision to hear you.
And when I do.
At 6 AM I see you with all three eyes -
World at your finger tips,
Stars in your mouth and a universe inside of you.
And You are so damn
Beautiful.
~
"Here you can be yourself
No one has to know what you are feeling
No one but me and you
I won't tell your secrets
Your secrets are safe with me
I will keep
Your secrets
Just think of me as the pages in your diary"

Hands II
Father Time calls me into the room.
He sits me on his lap,
reminds me he is man made
And That the woman I have come to and will be
Will go on to live eternally.
He reminds me that it is okay to make mistakes
And more important that I find a way
To heal. 
Ten toes into the soil now,
Father tells me to reach high
To believe again
To recall what it felt like to be tenderly naive
And free.
He whispers in my ear that it is okay
To fall.
He thinks you might be the one for me.
And I do too.
~
"We have loved each other
In and out
In and out
Of time."

Special
You treat me -
Carefully.
Fragile and considerate
You kiss my knuckles
And are constantly looking for new ways
To make my heart race.
You treat me,
As if I am the gift God has hand picked for you.
Undeserving and thirsty for more
I await your next move,
Aware that it may very well be the one
To make the love building inside spill over.
You treat me,
Special.
~
"You love me especially
different
every time
You keep me
on my feet
happily excited
By your cologne..."

Silk
You will ask me,
One day
Why I cannot keep my eyes off of you
And I will say
How could anyone look away?

Your eyes,
Everything is there.
Your heart spills over into them
And I want to go swimming.
Your skin,
Reminds me of warm milk and sugar.
Your lips
are silk.
Soft and attentive,
overly aware of every movement
and just a bit pensive when words come out.

You will ask me one day
Why I cannot keep my eyes off of you
And I will say
It is because you are made of silk.
~
"I want to run
smash into you"

Untitled (Last Night)
Midas had to feel overwhelmed in his time.
The expectation that came along
with his touch.
I've had the experience one too many times.
Clumsy thing I am
I've ruined many things by my hand.
Covered them in glitter
and called them gold.
I don't mean to go around changing things from what they're meant to be
but chaos seems to find home here
And spill over.
I've subjected you to my spell
and for this I am sorry.
Maybe you should go?
~
"Baby I've got a plan;
run away as fast as you can"

Dance For You
The sun rises and spills over you
Amplifying your already luminous glow.
Blinding almost.
I reach out to touch your back
Trace your waves and dips
With my fingertips
And feel electricity.
I become a bit more familiar with magic
In this moment.
All doubts fade
with this dose of unquestionable chemistry.
How do you do it?
So effortlessly send me swinging
Into this dizzy-way-down spiral to nirvana.
All of my senses suspended
and the only thing I know without doubt
Is how I want every part of you.

My hand snakes it's way up from the ocean
Of emotions
Your skin hasprovoked in me-
Makes its way to your hair.
I linger there
Hoping maybe this magic will manifest
And I can read your thoughts,
Know you better,
Find the key to forever.
You're so elusive...

My search for answers unsuccessful,
I am still shocked
As my palms grab a fistful of your hair
And fingertips interlock.
I feel electricity.
I fight back tears
Choking on the words that cannot do justice
To explain this intensity.
How do you do it?
Know what I need before I do like that?
Pull me in and disarm my ability to fight back?

The sun is higher now,
It's rays still dancing on your skin.
I want to dance for you like that.
I fantasize forevermore
And dizzy now -
Consciously descending,
On a graceful way-down.
I laugh
Thinking about how incredibly enamored
I must be,
To watch the sun rise on your skin,
And conceptualize it into stanzas of poetry.
What have you done to me?
~
"I just want you to know
Your whole being is beautiful."

Hide and Go Seek
That's what love is like a game of.
I found it hiding.
My barber taps his foot to music that sounds familiar,
He tells me I talk my English too fast.
We laugh.
We are surrounded by faces that
Remind him of his Haiti,
Tongues that understand his,
And Colors of the islands he left and I think...
What if love is simply finding the place
That feels like home?
~
"It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from...
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong"

Glory
I kiss my nieces wounds
And her frown dissolves into contentment.
I am home,
Healer of this home and loved.
I tell my sister she is beautiful.
People forget to tell her
Because the war waging in her brain
Translates into real life trouble a lot of the time.
I'm not around much,
But this reminder
Boosts her and I see her believe in herself.
I am home,
Builder of confidence and reader and missed.
The queen of the castle says it hurts here.
I know what she means.
I've always been her diary,
Even when I was too young to verbalize
That she needn't look for love elsewhere.
It's here.
Composed of the women that travel too much-
But are hardly ever displaced
And find communion on weekends
and holidays.
And it always feels like home.
~
"There are times
When you'll need someone
I will be by your side."

5th Element
If you are looking for
The cure,
Look no more.
I have found it.
In a mothers arms,
And in a lovers kiss.

Love is the 5th Element.