January 1, 2013. 10:53am
Maybe it's alittle silly to make a new years resolution when I've lived for 15 years and never made one before until now, but I think something new might be good. So, periodically I will result into making a journal entry about what has happened or how I'm feeling. It's like venting but I'm actually writing it down instead of telling my bestfriend whom I think is way more helpful than writing it down but it may help, given time.
I must start off by introducing myself. Although, I might be the only one who reads this, it might be good to just tell you about me and my life. You know, just in case I like, lose memory or something. Well, hi whomever you are. My name is Karisma Wheiler, pronounced basically as charisma wheeler which I don't like but it's catchy if I may say so myself. I am currently 15 years old but I'm turning 16 on April 21st. I am currently a foster child and I have been in the same home since I was 6. My foster parents are Rupert and Jazzmin. Rupert is mexican and Jazzmin is white and unfortunately can't have children so they put themselves into the system as foster parents. Because they were never able to have their own kids though, Rupert became a workaholic who always came home angry and my mother turned into a drunk who really had no care in the world. But this all happened once I turned 9, three years after I came.
I was always so sure that Rupert and Jazzmin had a child. Well, atleast a first child. The oldest guy in the house when I came was a guy named Shaun. He was barely a freshmen in high school when I first got there so he was like 14 I believe. He had looked so much like Rupert and Jazzmin but to be honest, they treated him with way less respect than they did with me and the other foster kid in the house, a black kid named Marquis. Because Shaun had looked so much like them but they never gave him their actual attention, I assumed he was the child that happened but didn't come out as planned. But I wouldn't know that since the only time I ever saw him was when he'd leave to school before Marquis and I did or when he'd come downstairs to eat. Shaun had left once he turned 18 though, and in the two years that I lived in the same house as him, I never got to know him which is kind of sad considering the relationship I have with Marquis.
Oh, speaking of Marquis. Marquis is my brother. Well, legally my brother but not my blood brother. Like I said, we lived and still do live in the same house together and because of that, we're actually really close friends. Best friends actually and you wouldn't believe how close we are because of the years we've known each other, the whole thing with us living in the same foster home with each other and all the shit we've been through together. It's almost as literal as I said it too, all the stuff we've gone through in the ten years I've known him are just so much that you would hardly believe it. Marquis is black, a year older than me and well. He's not like all the others. I honestly think that it's because of the environment that he's grown up in but who am I to know right? Well, he might be tall and strong and stuff but he's a real sweetheart. Trust me. His past though, well. What he's told me and what he remembers, that's just completely something on it own though. His mother had gotten pregnant at the age of 17 and the man who had gotten her pregnant was 20, and thought that he may be young but he could take care of their child. Which he couldn't. Because of the child, he became a heavy drinker and his mom had to work all the time to pay for the child so all Marquis went through from the ages of his mind developing was his dad abusing him verbally and physically on a daily after he would come home drunk out of his mind. His mom ended up finding out about this whole sha-bang and tried to leave the guy but he wouldn't let her. They got in a huge fight and Marquis' dad ended up brutally beating her unconscious and just leaving her there to bleed while Marquis watched and called the police. His dad was caught and is now in jail and can no longer legally be accountable for Marquis and cannot obtain any rights to be his legal father anymore and because of that, Marquis was put in the system.
