when i once belived in you

once i thought you were real but then you never made my wish come true that i haved aske dfor every year. My christmas spirit was gone after i was about 10. Each year id aske for the same thing but you were never able to give it to me.

one boring usual day at worki got an un expeted phone call. It was from my mom. she was as excited as ever. when i answred the phone she came at me with alot of quiestions. Am i coming down for the holiday. whos my new boyfriend. have i changed much. have i gotten a new audition for dance. Dance, oh how i loved it, i havent danced in a year is what it seemed like. When really it was just 8 months ive been too busy with work. who knew that working in a call center could be so hard to do. we honestly just pick up phones n have them order stuff, but it seems like its non stop work. From 6to 9we work answering phones and ordering stuff for them. My job was miserable but I didn't want to go back to my home town. All there was is drama n bad memories. I only have family there. Friends as if no one remembers me from school or day care. But I guess I'll go back for this holiday.

~Christmas break~

As I woke up to get on my plane to go to Alberquirque New Mexico I started getting flash backs of my child hood.

-first flash back-

Daycare: I was at day care I was known because of how I knew a lot of the workers they were my cousins.

I was the oldest I was 8 everyone else was a year younger so I had my own group. we were the best friends but when people moved it was the worst we couldn't replace. And then I was put out if day care. I didn't really like it I never got use to anyone cuz I was always moving schools. So when I would go back it's not like anyone ever noticed me. But there was this one guy that was always entered red in me Drew was his name. He was in baseball,footbal,and soccer. he came up to me during 5th grade and gave me something no other guys had ever gave me before. A pink rose. It was the best.