We are welcome into this world as a meaning, why am I here? Chandler Riggs was his name, the name made my knees rattle like a babies rattle. Crying myself to sleep every night, is everything gonna get better? Sitting in a small corner, will he ever know I love him so?
Walking down the halls of Etowah high school, everyone who lives in the neighborhood goes to school here. I remember the first time I heard his name, he looked at me and snapped me off.
I really never knew he was until it was to and for me, the note. He passed a note that will be there forever like a stain.
Standing at the end of the halls remembering how he treated me.
"Hey I'm Chandler, your the new kid right?" He asked.
I nod my head as if I've never been spoken to. I was scared, nervous is the correct word.
"So where did you go before?" He asked.
"I lived in Atlanta." I whispered.
"City girl?" He asked shocked.
"I just want my friends here by my side." I said.
"Me too, my best friend goes to UGA!" He said.
"My elder sister goes to UGA I'm going too." I said.
"Me too! Wow, maybe we can be roomies or something!" He said.
But he was never gonna make it to College, I knew of it, something about him made me scared or sad for him.
3 months later.
"So Y/N what do you think your doing tonight?" He asked.
"I'm gonna eat!" I said.
"Wanna go on a date?" He asked.
"Sure." I said.
To this day I still get scared every time he talks to me, I'm scared I'm gonna lose him.
We went on our date.
"Chandler, your stupid!" I said as he shoved fries into his mouth.
"How?" He asked.
"Because, you do the funniest, most dumbest things ever, that's why we're best friends." I said.
His smile dropped as soon as I said that, I knew he was gonna be mad I put him in the friend zone.
We just finished our date and he walked me to his car. I saw one of my old best friends, she smiled and ran up to Chandler, not me. I guess that's i guess that's what kind of made us split too.
3 days past and Chandler hasn't sent me a text, nor have I sent him one.
I went to school Tuesday, I walked by Chandler and heard slut.
I shot him a look like what the hell?
He smirked at the "Funny" remark he made.
I rolled my eyes, no one else really wants to be my friend, nor do I want to be anyone else's friend.
The next day I went to school again, Chandler called me names the day before.
I walked by him with my hood on and head down.
"Ms. Y/L/N (Your last name) please take your hood off." MRS. Smith said.
I took it off immediately, I find myself being stared at by all of my peers. I start to hear everyone shout names, it wasn't only Chandler.
A girl who has never talked to me hugged me and stuck a note on my back. I realized it because she never would have hugged me, the note read "Skank" on it. I look at the note and read it over and over.
I run to the bathroom with writing all over the walls, "Y/N is a ho!" "Y/N should kill herself!" "Y/N is an ugly/fat/slut who needs a life!" I read the writing over and over.
I start to cry I was sad that before I had a best friend and now I don't. I knew exactly why he hated me.
I have him a note about how I feel, about what was gonna happen.
'Dear my beloved Chandler,
When I first saw everything went off in my mind, I knew you were a nice person when I started talking to you... Now your mean, I can't take the hatred, everyone hates me because of you, now I'm scared, I'm depressed, I hate myself, I want to die, death is a choice or it's fait, I chose choice, I'm gonna die..."
I stuck it in his locker and after that, I went home. I sat and watched tv and my mom stuck a note under my door.
"Dear Y/N,
Don't do what your planning to do, I love you, I always have, yeah you didn't know it but I did. I was mad when you didn't like me back. I hate myself, don't do it."
My mom got a call from Gina Ann and she found Chandler dead, he had blood dripping from his arm and he was dead in a bathtub. The thing I was afraid of.
I cried, I screamed and cried, a week later was his funeral, I knew he was gonna die.
Tear dripping down my nose as I read out loud.
It was a few months later, and I read another note Gina Ann have to me after going through chandlers room.
"My dear Y/N,
I feel bad now, I've always loved you, in the end I never got to be the big person in the fanfictions about me, I always had the happy ending, I want you to have a happy ending, I want you to be happy. You spread so much laughter and joy to the world, I love that about you... I love you Y/N!"
I cried and a year after college, I decide it was time to go.
THE END
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