*warning* these are real people mentioned in this book to not reveal their identity the author will be using fictional names . Thank you for reading
~book of journals~
{Less than 5}
In less than five minutes I find myself being in the nurses office due to a mental break down. approximately five minutes before I find myself sitting at a table reading a book written by my favorite book writer Shane Dawson and his book "I hate myselfie" . I take a quick glance around the room someone catches my eye Mr.Unknown he was a close friend of mine i quickly look for a drawing that I had made for him . I leave my seat with the drawing crumbled in my hands then right before I tap his shoulder my hands start to shake . I tap his shoulder ...he looked me up and down and I hand him the drawing he slowly takes It out my hand and lays it in front of him I run back to my seat and I begin reading my book . Then out of no where my heart starts to pound almost coming out my chest . Almost instantly after I can't breath tears start to pour from my eyes . I try to hide it is use the book as a cover . It was getting worse so many tears had fallen down my face that the book was wet . The teachers had called my table...I didn't go up. The teacher walked over to me in disappointment she lowered the book that was masking my face . This honestly was the thing I didn't want to happen "sweetie I called you're table ...are you okay do you want to go to the counselors office". "No I'm fine I'm not interested in the lunches here" . "Okay sweetie" . She walked away a wave of releive hit me. Then Mr. understood walk to me "What's wrong ms. Chaos" he said in a quiet tone he's such a sweetheart but people don't like him. " I CAN'T STOP ....I'm fine I'm fine" . I lied through my teeth. He walked to his table keep his eyes on me . He really cares.
Then the principal walks to me " hey are you okay" at that moment all I want to do is scream." Go sit over there with Mr.unknown" that was the worse thing she could of did like I said we was good friends until we got in a relationship and broke up and he got into a new relationship I felt like trash sitt ing over there "do you want to talk" he said in his lowering voice . We just started 8th grade so all men's voices started to deepin . "No no I'm fine" . I lied in angered voice I slammed my book so hard on the table it shook . I sort of hate him just because he's hard to talk to yes a
walking dictionary scares me he's literally the smartest person . "Hey can you trade me that seat". A girl said "Yes". Thank God if I spent one more second with him his smarts and arrogants could have rubbed off on me. He's very intimidating to be around just because he's smart and he makes me feel stupid. "Hey Ms. Angel". she is my best friend . "Let's take walk" .she said after I told her what happened. we left the café and another teacher had informed the nurse what had happened she brought e to her office at this point I cryed so much that my shirt was wet. "Here eat this your blood sugar might be too low sweetie ". She handed me a orange juice carton with crackers "here take this" she put a piece of paper in my hand "I want you to see me and the counselor on Monday to check up on you " . She said "Okay"."are you taking any anti depressions pills"
"No".
"I'm gonna send you to your next Class okay". "Have a nice weekend sweetie take it easy". "Okay". And so I left
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~do I like him~
Diamond-Star
