I have no idea wether I should I should just break another man's heart . But some where deep down I feel someone is waiting for me. I have no idea if I'm making excuses because I'm scared of opening up again. But he's so.... jeez what am I thinking I've only have known him for little over a month. I feel like a whore. What am I thinking but I've liked him since I saw him. I'm not so sure any more . There are so many other people he likes as well . Maybe I should just wait. But If I wait I'll never know what will happen......
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here are so many guys that like me I'm not sure who to pick or if I should even pick at all. What do I have to lose I'll never know what awaits me if I plan to get in a relationship again. Hmmm yeah ill go for it . I'll get back to....who ever is lonely enough to be somewhat interested in my life.
Also very recently I had a vivid dream I think it ment something. I was in school and I remember just falling to the ground and just throwing up ...blood. I just had a gut feeling that Mr.unknown was in trouble . I ran so fast as if I was running for my life. I reached a white room no sign no number or anything. I walked in and I saw Mr.unknown screaming for dear life as he was banging his head against the wall. He was screaming something along the lines of I need it I told myself I don't but it's driving me crazy I need it. I as soon as I saw him I grabbed him by his waist and he fought back for a short second. After he calmed down he just crying along my chest then the dream faded it's colors into gray. I woke up before my alarm could even go of it usally goes of at 4:40 am i woke up at around 4:00 I just layed there. It was so vivid it was like I was there maybe it was just another night terrors but if it was I would have woke up in sweat.
