To ALL Transgenders

My Insecuritys

So since I'm transgender and I was born a girl I look like one, but I want to take testosterone but I'm only 14 and I haven't told any of my family that I'm trans. Anyways, here's my insecuritys

(Some fellow ARMYs might get this) a lot of people say I'm too chubby to be a boy, my goal size is Kim Taehyung. I want to be as skinny as him, I've actually starved myself and lost weight but jot enough to look like Taehyung. So I've cut down on eating and sometimes I skip meals.

I feel that if I have boobs them I'm not truly a guy, that I'll never be one as long as I have them.

I feel like I look too much like a girl.

I was in Walmart looking at boys clothes while my parents walked around and these two boys came up to me and said "shouldn't you be in the girls section? " "oh you're a tranny? F***ing freak" "go play with dolls like a normal girl! " "grow your hair out like a normal girl" "you have tits so that means you go look at bras and girly things not boxers and boy stuff" so I litteraly felt like crap, k felt like nothing.

I feel like nobody will love me when I tell them about me.

So yeah that's basically all of it I've decided to make this book or whatever like a diary or something and since nobody I know, knows my wattpad they won't see what I write right?