one opportunity

Chapter 18

Emily's Pov

"I'm glad we're over." Nash said. You're just a worthless piece of crap. Why did I even decide to date you? "That was the most stupid thing I've ever done."he laughed. I've never loved you. "It's entertaining to see you just falling in my little trap."he smirked. Do me a favor and jump off a building and kill yourself. I'd love that. Then you can just leave Ashley and I to live happily ever after.Nash smirked. Nash, I fucking loved you with all my heart. You don't know how long I've been crying over you in bed. I thought you loved me. I know this is a nightmare, but hearing those words come out of your mouth stabs me in the heart a million times.

 All those "I love you's" I'm starting to doubt that those were real. You know the worst thing that could ever happen? Seeing somebody you love, love somebody else. It hurts so much, Nash. I wish this wasn't a dream so I could just tell all of this to you in reality; so I could just shout what I';m saying right now in your face. But, no, this is a dream but I wish it wasn't. I still love you, but not with all my heart. My heart's already broken. I bet if I get x-ray, all a doctor would see of my heart is tiny little pieces. I hate you, but I love you so much. I don't even know anymore. I just want to kiss you and feel your soft lips on mine again, but at the same time, I want to beat you up so bad and slap you over and over again and tell you how much you hurt me. 

Remember your promise to me, that night in your's, Hayes's, and Matt's room?Do you even remember what you said? "Emily, you're amazing. I love you. I need you."It's not just an I love you.remember that? Remember when you said you'd love to be with me until the day you die? Guess what? We're over. We haven't even made it official in reality that we're over, but we are. I'm just too scared to just tell you we are over. I still want to be with you, but I hate you with a burning passion. My love life is complicated. You know what? I wish I was just that simple YouTuber and Viner and just be with Harry all the time because he;s the only one that can cheer me up. Skylar does cheer me up, too, but she doesn't cheer me up like Harry does. I wish I never knew you at all and I wish I never agreed to join Magcon Florida. I wish I'm just.. me.I still love you, but I don't. I can't. I don't know, my love life's just complicated.

The scene changed and I found myself in a seaside. I squinted my eyes to see two figures in the distance. The guy was spinning the girl around, and the girl was squealing.I walked towards them and immediately knew that they were Nash and Ashley. They looked so happy together. I couldn't help but think 'That's supposed to be me with Nash'. I sighed and started walking away, not being able to bare the scene, but then I felt a hand grab mine. I turned around.'Emily, wait please let me explain." Nash pleaded, his eyes suddenly red and swollen. I looked around and found that Ashley wasn't here anymore. 'Leave me alone' I growled, pushing him away. His grip got tighter.'Leave me alone!' I repeated, my voice slowly rising to a shout. He shook his head, but his nails started digging into my skin. I whimpered in pain. 'Nash, let me go!' It was as if he was stabbing my arm with a knife. I howled in pain. "Nash!please!' 

The scene shifted and I found myself in a room. It was dark, and there was a faint light coming from the small window above me. I jumped up, attempting to reach it and escape, but I was too short and small.'Well, hello there, Emily"a girl's voice said. I snapped my head toward the voice."Who are you?"I asked, stepping backwards. My head hit a wall, making tears spring to my eyes as I reached behind my head. I pulled my hand back and found it covered in blood.Ashley. Ashley.Then the room lit up with torches. It was the first time I saw Ashley very clearly. She was gorgeous. Of course any boy would leave any girl for her."I'm just here to warn you."she smirked, twirling a strand of her hair.

 "I'm going to steal your precious little Nashty boo. I already have." she winked. Dark spots covered my vision, but I didn't need to see. I just needed to hear what she was saying."Then Cameron, then Matt, then Shawn, then all of the boys."she bit her lip, tossing her hair back."Just watch out, Emily. I have more plans in mind for you. Now you know it's a mistake for joining Magcon Florida." she smirked, walking over to me. I lunged at her, but she took a step back, making me fall on the floor.

The scene shifted the last time. I was, again, in a dark room, but Ashley wasn't there anymore.I looked around, and I heard a voice. "Emily!" the voice- which I assumed belonged to Skylar, screamed. I looked around frantically. "Em, help!"I pounded on the walls, looking for any sign of a door. The screaming got louder, making me cover my ears and fall on the ground. "Stop!" I screamed.The screaming got louder and louder by the second. I didn't know what happened next; I blacked out.

Author's note: this chapter would go so well with the i hate you i love you song by Gnash :) This chapter is rather confuses but mainly its a dream and she changes scenes a couple times:)