Love. Everybody is in search of it. Little do they know that if they don't find love in them selfs and and God , they won't find it or give it to someone else. How can you find something you don't know about or have? But people keep insisting on it. I personaly don't beleve in it. Do we realy have such a high ego that we wan't a complete stranger to feel affection for us? Is just so stupid how we try to persue someone into 'loving' us. But what is love realy? I guess is an idea that perfection other then God excist in this earth a mistaken idea that is though. Love gives people the ilusion that everything will be ok. That as long as I'm here and you are there, the world could stop his rotation around himself and the sun and everything that involves US will be fine. Because in love there is no you and there is no me. There's an US. What is that exactly? I supose is an ilusion that you will become me and I will become you. And I will love you forever but I will asure you that forever is not long enough. What a lie! Biggest lie of all. But they fall,we fall, US falls, IN LOVE. Because thats another story I can love you but not be IN LOVE with you. Love= I love you and thats never going to end no matter what. IN LOVE= romance, beleving that that person is the one who substains you alive and gives you the ability to breath. Which is impossible, but what happens when IN LOVE disapers? US, yeah, US is gone. It was never there no matter how much time has happened since US started. When IN LOVE is gone US is gone to. Is like they are a perfect couple. Ironic huh? I guess I don't want people to realize that US and IN LOVE are just fairy tales, because if they do excistense, unconsional sentimental dependence and hopeless romantics will disapear. And life will to. I guess I'm ok with does who realize it doesn't excist and decide to write about it in there own perfect way. Where love is unbreakable and there are 'happy endings'. That also does not excist, but thats another strory. And I'm ok with those who realize that theres no perfect other perfect thing then God in this earth. An write about love in a beautiful way with a sad but realistic ending. Now is it weird that someday I want to find love? I mean thats me and my life: Ironic,sarcastic,funny because I laugh instead of crying. So one day I hope I find an US in someone and fall in a impossible non excicting LOVE. Because fantasy and hope is what makes this life intresting.
