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After everybody went to sleep, I snuck out and walked home. It felt awkward being there. I hated it. So of course me, being me, I walked home. I wrote a note and put it on the fridge. (So cliche)

Hey, yeah I walked home see you guys later (: Btw, the house keys are used the mat.

-A

It took me about an hour and a half to get back to my house. I forgot what time it was and I was shocked.

4:39 a.m.

I wasn't even tired to walk about probably 30 miles?! Looks like I did my exercise for the month. I slammed the door to my house and just grabbed a bottle of water and went to my bed. My room was dark, but still I could see. I looked at the ceiling and just couldn't sleep. I was simply, awake.

"I hate this crap called life." I said quietly to myself. I took a sip of the cold water.

Then, I felt hot tears stream down my face. I cried, bawled, threw a tantrum, you name it! In other words, I was having a mental break down. It was weird, I don't hate Kian, and I don't love him. I guess I was just, sad.

Man, feelings suck major ass. Literally. If I hadn't fallen for Kian, I would've been, happier? If I would've stayed away from him and trusted my gut block his number, I would've been, happier?

But, I guess that's life. To take risks, and to live it to the fullest.

I don't know why I'm am saying this. I sound like a mother. Yuck.

After I had my, "moment", I checked the time and it was, 5:27 a.m. I decided to try to go to sleep. Didn't work. I got a call shortly after.

And, yes. It was Mr. Douche Bag himself.

"What?" I said in annoyance.

"I'm sorry for acting the way I did." He sighed.

"Save it. I don't I really don't know why you called me at this time, but please stop. Delete my number, and please don't contact me. And I would also like to apologize, for what I did to you." I said sniffling.

"But-" He started, I interrupted.

"Shut it. Let me finish," I said and he listened to my command.

"Yeah, I know I left without saying anything to you, because I know how you would act. And I'm really shocked about how quickly you got over our so called break up. I'm happy for you and Andrea, she's sweet and nothing I could ever be. I don't want us to be awkward, I just want a mutual friendship." I said sniffling through out that entire speech. He was silent, be he finally spoke up.

"Yeah, okay. That's fine by me." He said simply. I couldn't muster a smile, so I just kept a normal face.

"Thanks Kian, bye." I hung up before he could say anything. I shut down my phone and shoved my face into my soft pillow and went to sleep.

-

Waking up the next morning I didn't feel well, I felt hungover. I checked the time it was only ten o'clock. Only five fucking hours of sleep. No wonder I feel like crap. I couldn't go back to sleep so I turned on my phone to check if I had any notifications I missed.

8 missed calls from Alex💖

120 messages from Alex💖