[ix]~ i shouldn't

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I really should have been drowned at birth. 

I shouldn't have lived.

The pain and chaos that I have caused should never have occurred,

If I had not lived.


Too much of a coward,

I cannot take my own life.


Too selfish, 

I must live a life I should not have,

And let the people I love suffer from my presence.


Wallowing in self-pity,

Bile rise up to my throat,

Disgust is all I feel about myself,

As I should.


I should not have lived.

I should not have breathed. 

Then they wouldn't have to suffer.


Don't lose hope?

How can I lose something that I never had?



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