IRRESISTIBLE LOVE; g.d

Chapter 4

ALESSIA'S POV

Honestly being faced with Grayson made me feel pretty awkward but I'm not so sure about how it made him feel.

"Why are you here?" he said with just a little confusion, nothing else.

"Um, uh, I'm here for my uh project with Ethan." I couldn't think straight, how could he act like nothing happen? I understand that it must be awkward for him but he was the one who decided to get all hulk on me so the least he can do is fucking talk to me about it now that I'm cooled off and not all flustered.

After I finally got out my sentence I heard Ethan coming down the stairs and a gust a relief came over me.

"Oh hey Les come in" Ethan said as he opened the door wider from behind Grayson who turned around and walked into the kitchen.

We went up to Ethan's room and started discussing our project. The topic the teacher gave us was 'the human body' so we were just gonna bullshit the project and just name a fact about all the body parts, get a skeleton, put some post-it's and glitter on it and then done.

"So should we-"
"What's with your brother?" I said as I cut off Ethan. I just couldn't help myself, the thought of how Grayson was talking to me had been bugging me the whole day.
"What?" Ethan said as he let out a little chuckle .
"I mean like, why is he acting like nothing ever happened."
"Because he wishes nothing ever happened." Ethan responds with another laugh.
"Ethan! It's not funny, I'm serious. I want to talk to him about it."
"Then do it!" Ethan says laughing hard this time. What was so funny to him? Am I being that complicated? Should I really just go talk to him if he won't talk to me? Is it really that simple? Nothing in high school is ever that simple. Oh god I've officially become a basic dramatic bitch.

"Whatever, where is he?" I ask as I stand up from Ethan's bed.
"What makes you think I know? Go find him yourself." He answers not taking his eyes off his phone.
"You know what Ethan"
"What"
"Fuck you!" I start giggling as I walk out the door and then Ethan throws a pillow at me. I run over to him and grab his phone from his hands. I ran out of his room and downstairs into the kitchen with Ethan chasing me.

We were both laughing, screaming, and running around until we heard a door slam shut upstairs.

"Who's room is that?" I ask Ethan while staring up the stairs.

"Grayson's" he says with a confused look. He then continues, "whatever I'm going to get food, you can go check up on him if you want but watch out because I think he's on his man period."

I smile a little at Ethan and then head upstairs. 

I walk up to Grayson's door and I'm about to knock on the door but I stop when I hear talking.

"No, Nate you don't understand how pissed off I am"
And then there is a pause.
"Yes I know he doesn't know how I feel about her but he obviously knows what's happened by now, Cameron doesn't know how to keep his mouth shut so he probably told him already."
Another pause.
"Yea you're probably right I should probably tell him how I feel about her, it's just that he's gonna fucking tease the shit out of me for it, you know how Ethan is."
Who the fuck is he talking about
"But bro what if he likes her too. They are always talking in school, they are like friends or something now . I just saw them together laughing and shit, it made me want to fucking punch a wall"
Now it's a longer pause.
"Ok you know what fine, since your done with my stupid drama I'll just handle this myself but don't be surprised if Ethan comes into school tomorrow and you can't recognize him because I'm about to rearrange his face."
Oh shit. I can't let that happen.
That's when I had to step in and find out what the fuck he was talking about. And yea I know it has nothing to do with me but maybe I could help...me and Ethan are friends so I'm not just going to let Grayson hurt him.

I opened the door and immediately Grayson turns around and puts his phone away.

"What are you doing here?" He asks with a puzzled look.

"Well I initially came to talk to you about what happened at the party but then I heard you say that you were gonna hurt Ethan and I'm not going to stand around and let you do that, so now I'm here as a friend and I want you to tell me about what's going on because you seemed really mad." I say very nicely and calm.

"You wouldn't understand" he says frustrated.

I get why he wouldn't want to tell me right away, it's kind of awkward between us two but I hate that cringy feeling I get when I'm in the same room with someone that I have a problem with. I'd rather everything be civil so if we could just open up to each other and act like friends I would be so much happier. After all I am going to be in his house a lot because of this project.

"Ok maybe I won't understand but you know you can talk to me, I don't want things to be weird. And it's better to get your feelings out with your words not your fists" I say with a smile as I giggle a little.

I don't know why I'm acting like this, usually I would just bitch slap anyone who hurt me but Grayson had this look in his eyes. This look that just showed 'hurt' and 'sadness'. Like he needed someone to talk to and let it all out to. I just couldn't help myself, i guess I just I needed to comfort him to make myself feel at ease.

"Sorry princess but have you ever heard the expression 'actions speak louder than words' because that's what I'm living by right now." He said as he sat down on his bed and I sat down beside him shortly after.
"Grayson, why are you so mad at Ethan. He couldn't have done anything that bad"
"It's not just Ethan!" Grayson said as he stood up. "It's everyone, it's everything! I can't fucking be myself and I'm always held up to this fucking standard that I have to be a person that I'm not!"
What does he mean by all of this? I've never been more confused. I thought Grayson was all proud and shit of this person he's become.

"What do you mean Grayson? You always seem so happy and stuff" I say as I stand up next to him.

"Not everything is always how it seems. I know that your this perfect girl with awesome grades, a wonderful family, great friends and your not really exposed to the real hell hole, also known as high school but some of us have it harder than you think. Some of us have to put on an act everyday just to please assholes like you and your little boyfriend downstairs!!"

What the actual fuck is he fucking talking about? In this moment I started to see that look of anger in his eyes again. The same look I saw the night if the party.

"What are you talking about?! You sound crazy! Me and Ethan are not dating!" I yell back at him because I can no longer contain my anger. I tried to help him and he goes off on me again.

"Well maybe you should stop flirting with him because it's pretty obvious you like him. But he will never like a girl like you, he would never downgrade that much. You're not worth anyone's time or love" he said with this nasty expression.
I have to admit, that really hurt me a lot. Usually insults don't get to me, but this was Grayson. The only boy that I've ever had feelings for and the one that I might...actually still...have...feelings...for.
I had to know why he was saying this stuff to me and flipping out like this.
"why are you saying this stuff to me?"
He did nothing but turn his back to me.
I grabbed his shoulder and turned him around to face me.
"Why are you so angry all of a sudden"
He looked down to the floor.
"Grayson" I said with a little bit of a louder tone.
"What?!" He yelled at me which took me by surprise.

"Why are you being so mean to me?!"

"Because no one will ever let me love you!!"

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Chapter 4 is upp!!! BY THE WAY HAPPY DTT!!!!! Ik the beginning of this is sort of dragging out but I promise it's gonna get real good real quick, just stay tuned for chapter 5 for a little surprise.
Xoxo, your girl Jules💜