Childhood Memories

Caught Red Handed, Literally.

⚠⚠ This whole book will be filled with trigger warnings ⚠⚠

Ikemen POV

Arg!! I love my family but why did this have to happen to us? Why did dad have to go to work that day? Why did mum have to eat that meal that day? Why did I get left behind? Yeah I have Maehara to talk to if i need it but, like I'm going to tell him straight out that I'm depressed. And selfharming. And that I have eating disorders. And that I'm bisexual thanks to him. He wouldn't get off my back trying to help me. I wouldn't want to burden him like that. I took a pocket knife I kept in my pocket, duh, for emergencies. Hesitantly I brought it to my wrist, and dragged the blade across my skin multiple times. Until it was numb, then didn the same to my other arm. As soon as I did, I cleaned up my mess and wrapped myself some bandages. I made sure not to cut close to my hand, privacy/secrecy measures. And I made my way to school thinking; 'What have I done?' Multiple times over.

I weakly climbed the mountain I called school to be met with Nagisa, Karma, and Maehara. "Hey, Isogai!" Maehara smiled brightly.
"Hey, Maehara!" I replied with a fake smile, I wasn't really in the mood to talk considering what I did to myself minutes earlier. He walked over and we talked, unaware that the room slowly began to fill. We stopped talking when we were all hit with a blast of wind, whom we all knew was Koro-sensei.
"Person on duty, please,"
I stood,
"Stand", we took aim.
"BOW!", we fired. Surprisingly one of us managed to hit the yellow octopus.
"Congratulations, Isogsai-kun, the first person to hit me during roll call. Now on with the lesson." We sat down and took out our pens.

During the middle of the lesson, I reached into my bag, and once again pulled out my knife. I revealed the blade. But as I did:
"You know who you are, put it away." Koro-sensei exclaimed. I forgot. He can smell metal. I sheathed my blade and put it back into my bag.

Lunch came quickly, and due to my eating disorders, I didn't pack a lunch. I went up to Maehara and invited him to eat with me. He agreed and pulled out his lunch. "You don't have one?" He asked, I shook my head, "No, in a rush to get my siblings to school I forgot to bring it." Lies. All of it.
He held out some of his homemade bento, "Here, we can share." I held out my hand, he placed a small sushi roll into it. I ate, just because he was staring at me like a hungry puppy. Almost immediately, I turned my head and spat it up again.
"Isogai!" He cried, before rubbing circles on my back, soothing me. "Hey! Okuda!" He continued, "Get Koro-sensei!" She nodded and ran to the faculty room. Soon after Maehara explained what happened and took me to the buildings out of date infirmary.

"So, has this happened before Isogai?" The yellow creature asked me. Weak, I nodded.
"Do you know why?" I nodded again. "You haven't told him have you?" Tilting my head down I nodded once more, knowing what he's asking. He went to my sleeves rolling them seeing my bandages he reached into the cabinet and reached for clean ones. He unwrapped them after seeing how many I had on each arm nearly made him faint. That's a weakness I'll tell Nagisa later. Regaining his balance he chuckled slightly, "I know it's not because you're lonely, or you feel unloved, so why?" He asked me. "Stress reliever." I answered in a small voice. He let me leave, knowing he won't get more out of me. "Koro-sensei?" He turned to me, "Please, don't tell Maehara." He nodded.

I met up with Maehara again, and to my surprise he hugged me. Without hesitation I hugged back. "P-please, -sniff- d-dont scare M-me l-like that -sniff- a-again" I couldn't believe what I was hearing, my best friend who never cries at anything, is crying over me. I already knew what that means, I'm burdening him. Making him worry.

After school we walked to my house because we wanted to stay over a couple of hours. "Are you sure you're OK?" He asked me for the 50th time. And for the 50th time, I nodded, "Yes, Maehara, I feel fine." Lies, he's right here in front of me, worrying. Something I don't want people to do over me. Noticing that I was off in my own world, Maehara tackled me, pushing me down onto the bed. "When are you going to tell me the truth, Yumma?!" H-he just said my first name? I looked at him surprised, "What?"
"Y-you called me by my first name,"
"I did, I'm sorry."
"It's OK."
"So?"
"So, what?"
"When are you going to tell me the truth?" "What do you mean?" I knew what he meant. Who wouldn't in my situation? I looked away. And closed my eyes. But I immediately opened them when I felt something warm on my neck.
"M-Maehara?" I moaned out, he rolled down my sleeves, as if he's trying to prove his suspicions.
He pointed to my scars, "Why?" He said in a low husky voice.
"I did it as a stress reliever." He raised his head, his eyes full of sadness. "No longer, please."
"O-ok"
"Admit it."
"What?"
"Admitting it is the first step to getting better, admit it." I looked him in the eyes, and took a deep breath.
"I'm depressed, I have eating disorders, and I self harm."
"And?"
"A-and, I'm bisexual." He smiled, and kissed my lips, it wasn't a rough kiss, it was a sweet and gentle kiss.

Soon after I kissed back, putting my hands behind his head, exploring his soft hair.
His hands started from my chest and they started to wonder down to my hips, grinding against me. I moaned many times into our kiss and when I did, he smiled into  it. He trailed his kisses down to my jawline then to my shoulder. Slowly going down my chest. "M-Maehara, S-stop, p-please."
Knowing when to stop, instead of trailing his soft lips downwards he moved them upwards and back to my neck, still searching for my weak point, "A-ahh. M-Maehara. A-ahh." I moaned. He found it. He stopped, leaving me a panting mess. As was he. He flopped down beside me and we fell asleep facing each other, holding hands.

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