My name is Laneya Johnson, 16, and im homeless. Straight like that. Obviously, that means im poor. I hate life, and there was no point to it anymore. Numerous times i tried committing suicide, but im always stopped. My last time i tried, some guy ran out his car & pulled me back before i jumped off Tobin Bridge. When i tell you suicide never works, it doesnt for me. I even asked to be killed, and the guy with the gun thought i was crazy so he didnt kill me. You wanna know my background story? Fine. Let me peep my dumbass life... I lived with my parents until i was 7. They didnt want me no more, and to be honest, i didnt want them either. I was raped & molested by my dad since i could ever remember. And abused by both parents since i was a baby. So one day, i was just left with my grandma, with my sister. She was the only one who really loved me & La'Kia. But then she died when i was 13, she died of a sudden heart attack. It broke me & my sisters heart. My parents came back, and had no choice but to take us. We went back to the normal activities of getting raped, molested, and abused. My sister died protecting me when i was 14. My dad was trying to rape me one day & my sister came to the rescue... R.I.P. La'Kia, only a day after turning 18 years old. I loved her so much. She came over to come get me so we move in with her boyfriend. He was the closest to us after granny died. I loved him a lot too. After La'Kia died, i havent heard from him. He moved away heart broken, and ready to kill himself. But when my sister came in my room, she saw my dad tryin to rape me. She tried pushing him away, but he turned around & shot her right in the middle of her head in front of me. Then, after, my mom & dad was sleep, and i was just crying in my bed. I smelt smoke, and i saw the house in flames. I jumped out the window so quick, and just ran as far as i can go. I ended up in East Cambridge. I sat in near Gold Star pool & just slept there. For 6 months, i was just always sleeping somewhere outside by myself. Until one day i just brought myself to the homeless shelter. I checked in, and they gave me some clothes, a towel, a bed, and a meal. One lady told me to keep my belongings close, cause they might not be there in a blink of an eye. I've been there for a year now... And i dont have any friends either. I do have a job at the mall though. I work at Foot Locker. Just last month a little girl about 4 year old was dropped off. Every night she screams for her mom. She carries a brown bear every where she goes, never letting it go. Her name is Kamyra. She comes to me every night asking if she can sleep with me. I say yes all the time, only because she reminds me of myself when i was younger & always wanting to sleep with her. La'Kia made me feel that sense of security that i didnt have. In a way, Kamyra became like my daughter. I always have her with me, and i look after her like she's my own. We just remind me of me & my older sister a lot, i guess... Yesterday, Kamyra even called me mommy. I was shocked, and didnt know what to say. All i know is, i only have one point of living right now, and its for Kamyra. I know La'Kia is finally lookin down at me smiling
