Her POV
The day I met Finn was one of the most normal and abnormal days of my life. It was my first day at this school just like every other fifth grader there and I was excited and nervous and shy. I had spent the summer pining for the boy who lived right down the street and the boy who I thought liked me back. Today would be the day that I finally saw him again. But every single thought of him was banished from my mind as I walked into the room where I would spend my days for a year.
Oh my god. Those were the only words that rang through my head. Clear as a bell, even to this day, three years later. I hadn’t known who he was, I had known nothing about him but somehow I knew. He was going to make this year… memorable.
He was tall. Tall but skinny, his t-shirt and shorts hung loosely around him. His bronze hair gleamed in the late summer sun that filtered through the window. He seemed to drink up the sun and shine so brightly with it even though he hadn’t said a word to anyone. I saw people’s eyes flick upwards to see me, the newcomer. I knew I was late but I couldn’t help it. I was just slightly, you know… terrified. But when our gazes clashed for that one millisecond I could swear time stopped and every single thought of Calum left my head. All I saw were Finn’s brilliantly bright, storm blue eyes pierce mine.
And just like that the moment had passed. But deep down I knew. That was the moment that would change me forever.
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Skip ahead a couple months and you would see me laughing with three or four guys. Jack and Hunter became my best friends and the times we shared with Finn are the memories I hold most dear. Over the year we spent together I fell in love with Finn. I lost almost all feelings I had once held for Calum because I was so entranced by this boy that I saw every day and spent eight blessed hours with. Our teacher, Ms. Williams became my crazy aunt, our class became my family. I loved all of them. And I thought they loved me to.
Skip all the way to June of 2012. It would later become the summer of my life. I had my first boyfriend and found friends that became siblings and people I would die forever. It would be the summer of heartbreak and renewal and lost friendships. I said one thing my best friend took the wrong way and POOF! She was gone. Completely out of my life. I lost Finn that summer too. I didn’t see him and I remember towards the end of the school year, he said something to me that haunted my late night thoughts.
“I’m going to forget you next year. We probably aren’t even going to be friends.”
I hated him for saying that. Maybe because he was so utterly right, or maybe because with every fiber in my body I wanted him to be wrong. But guess what! He totally called it. The summer was great but like every year, school rolled around and the warm nights were gone. He and I drew further and further away from each other and by the time I realized I was still in love with him he was gone.
I spent the rest of the school year, the entire summer, and even the beginning of the next school year, pining and breaking at the whisper of each new girl he liked. I tried everything but it wasn’t like it was in fifth grade. When words came easily between us and we shared laughs, jokes, smiles…
Any way I have spent a long time liking this guy even though deep down, I knew that he had zero feelings for me now. And because I was just a silly, stupid teenage girl with a crush I should have been able to let go but if anyone knows me, I can’t do that. Just let go because I finally decided to. It is a crushing feeling of giving up. But finally after two years I reached the point where I gave up. But we aren’t there just yet.
