Teenage Dreams

What are you supposed to expect from life, if life never gives you what you want, no matter how hard you work for it. I've always been brought up in a good family, yes sometimes I do ask for quite a lot but there are on times when all I really need is just to be happy. Some people think, getting what they want will make them happy but even when they get what they want they are never completely satisfied. Some do not ask for much from life but yet what others desire it's often handed to them on a plate for free. Confusing right?

Life is very complicated, one minute you can be extremely happy then all of a sudden extremely sad or it could be the other way around. There should be this remote control like from the film 'Click' that Adam Sandler stars in. This allows you to forward life on, undo stuff that you regret or just too simply pause life to think about it before going ahead. Just by a simple "click".

No doubts by now, you're probably wondering what am I supposed to be getting at, what is my point? Well, as a teenager, you expect life to come easy.....when it certainly does not! You have all these mood swings, sometimes you want to scream the house down or you just want to be left alone to cry your heart out. Your parents no doubt will say, "Look I know what you're going through" but yet in your head your thinking 'no you don't'.

Well….….my name is Becky Newport, I’m a teenage girl and yet my life has been very complicated. Come on, most teenage girls go through very similar situations as one another, am I right? I’ve fallen in and out of love, I’ve cried my eyes, argued with friends and family but yet all I want to do is just escape from this place. Why can’t life just be simple, like the way movies make life out to be?

My story starts off when I was in comprehensive, the last year just before I began college. This was the start of how my life was altered quite a lot. I used to go out on a regular basis but my parents restricted me from going out as much seeing as I had GCSE exams to study for. Most teenagers often see this as a disadvantage and that it was revenge by parents. Oh the joys! Who cares? Well I certainly didn’t care, not one bit! Your parents care for a reason, a lot of the stuff that they have done is to help you out in life.

Well, in school I choose to study, Art, I.C.T, Science and R.E (short for religious education). I never really knew what I wanted to do, like a job aspect. One person I knew, she wanted to be a doctor but then she decided she wanted to be a paramedic. Most of the girls in my school wanted to be a teacher, quite boring I would assume. I never really thought about what I would do for when I grew up, I wanted to live my life and choose my paths as I came across them. Sounds a bit stupid but that was my choice.  I live my life the way I want too, not the way others expect me too.

Now while I was in comprehensive, I found it easier being friends with boys than with girls. Now the thing with boys, well I think I should be more precise by here. Some boys can be bitchy but yet you have some that once as friends, you’re able to have a laugh no matter what. But the thing is, even though I’m a girl myself, well we girls…..we just too bitchy towards each other half the time. There’s always tension or that temptation to start an argument over hardly anything. Most girls often have this motto ‘I’ll be nice to you if you be nice to me, but be a bitch towards me and I’ll be a bitch back’. Come on you can’t really deny that now can you? It’s quite true from what most girls are like lately these days. 

Throughout my comprehensive school life, I was often known as a ‘nerd’ or in slang term ‘boffin’ as what most people would say about me. But yet the stereotypical view of a nerd is often someone who wears glasses, has braces where food would commonly get stuck in, the plain boring hairstyle and even the dreadful dress sense. But yet I was nothing like the stereotypical perspective of a nerd. I had medium brown length hair with layers and streaks, I didn’t require glasses as my eyesight was quite perfect. In fact I didn’t even need braces either, my dentist had informed me that my teeth were in perfect condition and shape. Also my dress sense was quite up to date with the latest trend. So how does that make me a nerd then? I quite frankly do not see that as nerdy! But on the other hand, well…I did…..have an IQ score of 133 which apparently makes me a gifted person and I keep maintaining the top grades throughout my year. So due to my high intelligence I was seen as a nerd but yet as far as I’m concerned my appearance was totally different to how a nerd should be.  

I never really choose to wear makeup, for instance foundation or even concealer. When I would go to parties I would wear it but otherwise it never bothered me, I felt happy as I was. Even though people said I was pretty without makeup, they would say how “Becky, you should try and wear makeup more often, you’ll look even prettier”. Were they insulting me saying how I was not “pretty”? Or was it because they knew if I chose to wear makeup, it would raise the game for those stuck up snobby popular girls who thought no one under their rank should ever date a cute hot guy?

I never really liked the popular people, they thought they were…well…..god’s gift. They looked down at everyone, no doubt thinking to themself ‘I’m so much better looking’. Or if someone below their standards would prove them wrong in some way, they would often result in making that person’s life a living hell, this was usually done by embarrassing the poor sole. Rarely letting anyone have the fame and glory.

But there was this one popular person named Danny who I came very close too. He had the looks, the charm and a very nice yet sweet personality. We became really good friends, we rarely spoke to one another before though. One day, we both were in I.C.T, I was (as usual) completed most of my work and he was still doing his work. Danny came over to me and asked for my help, even though his friends were beside him but of course they wouldn’t have a clue seeing as they were messing around, playing silly computer games. It was the first time I had ever spoken to him, well seeing as he was being decent and surprisingly polite, I decided that I should help him. When I sat next to him I felt really nervous and shy but it was like this message was being sent along the nervous system transmitting the message ‘HOT GUY ALERT, HOT GUY ALERT’ to my brain which was unable to function properly after the message. Danny just reminded me of Taylor Lautner, the hot hunk which most people have heard him from the latest movie Twilight. There was just something about Danny, something that made me think different of him compared to the rest, but what was it though?