Living With My Nightmares

Why Now..

I wake up at 6:00 am to the sound of my parents fighting, I look over at my phone to see how much time I have till school starts '8:00' I thought to myself. I get out of bed and I walk downstairs to have the displeasure to see mom balling her eyes out, I walk up to her and I say "mom are you okay?" I questioned with deep concern she put on a fake smile "No, no, no Jae you don't have to worry about me, I'm fine just me and your father were just having a disagreement" she said lying through her teeth, a single tear falls down my cheek as my sling my head down "No mom you're not okay stop lying to yourself!" I yelled. She smacks my face and yelled "Don't you ever talk to me that way young man", I run upstairs  to my sister's room and I lock the door. "Is mommy mad again" she cried, I ran my fingers through her short blonde to show her big beautiful green eyes, "It's okay, one day we'll all be okay one day" I said as I hugged her. "Okay go get dressed then come downstairs" I said trying to calm down. I walk to my room and I get dressed and I get my backpack and walk downstairs. I pick up my sister and we walk outside, I see my friend Nari waiting for us like always "Are you two ready" she questioned "yeah let's go" I said quickly.

After Nari and I dropped off my sister Allison at daycare we arrived at our school, we were fifthteen minutes late but front office gave us a pass to our first period, math. We walk into class and as expected everyone goes silent turns around and looks at us "take a picture, it will last longer" I snapped, Nari slapped the back of my head with a soft smile on her face "Sorry ma'am we'll go sit" Nari said in her naturally soft voice, we walked to our seats Nari and I sat on the four seats from each other because the teacher did not like us one bit. I was just daydreaming to myself and some guy threw his pencil at me I threw it back at him "Jae no throwing things in my classroom" Mrs. Washington exclaimed, "yeah okay whatever" I muttered. "Detention after school today" Mrs. Washington replied 'uhhh' I thought to myself. After class ended I was waiting for Nari to finish up talking to the teacher she was taking a while so I decided to esdrop a little bit, 'Mrs. Washington I have to go out of town to visit a sick family member, I'll be gone for 2 weeks' she said in her sweet voice, 'okay I'll give you the planned homework'. After all that Nari walked out she saw a mad expression on my face " when were you gonna tell me!" I exclaimed "lower your voice we're in public" she whispered, "NO I'm gonna be as loud a I want, now answer my question WHEN WERE YOU GONNA TELL ME" I yelled "I was gonna tell you before I left!" she raised her voice. "Well I see I'm not important enough for you, so I'll be on my way" I said more calmly, "Ohh they bout to fight" some guy yelled in the hallway, I pined up the guy against the wall and I whispered "Look here buddy I'm not having the best day and I don't have time for your bs, are we done here". I let him go and walked to my class trying to calm down.

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After the last bell rings for the day I stand up from my desk and walk through the halls to the back entrance, as I'm walking to the back door people are whispering about what I did earlier to that guy, I just try to ignore them and do my own thing, these two girls were not even whispering they were basically just trying to make me mad maybe they think it cute or whatever. Finally I make it out of that god forsaking school, now I just have to go pick up Allison from daycare, as I'm walking I think over all the things that happened today my mom busting into tears and denying it, Nari leaving for two weeks. Finally it overcomes me I fall to the ground in tears scraping my knees. I finally say to myself groping my knees "Why me, why now".